Sky Above Italy

It was extremely hot today, the afternoon sun was shining through my window. I must say I just had the most joyous Salvia trip I ever experienced.

At first I saw a continuous process of multiplication of fractals, and I had a feeling that I must give something. Then I suddenly became the sky above Italy. The view was as if I was above Mediterranean see looking from West to East toward Italy. The whole perspective was inverted upside down. The size was adjusted automatically as if my body would fit the sky, I did not feel being too big. I could see towers of the Italian cities far away. The feeling was good, I did not want this to end and concentrated in order to prolong it.

When I woke up sweat was running all over me.

Illusion of Space

I like taking a little bit of Salvia Divinorum as opposed to more because it is not so stressful upon regaining consciousness and becoming aware of reality. It is even joyous and you can recall perfectly what kind of experiences you were having minutes ago.

This time I was transferred to Lithuania, Palanga Bridge during my experience. The feelings and sensations were so intense as if I really was there. I had no doubt I was in Palanga at that moment. I saw a cloudy sky with relatively calm see, also the bridge. I was on the shore, or I was the shore itself, could not tell the difference as always during Salvia experiences.

Only after some minutes passed I begun to question my presence in that particular place, because I knew I was lying in my bed in Toronto. Still I could not understand why is there a phenomenon of space and distance, because it seamed to me as if everything in the Universe was in one place. Distance was just another illusion.

I continued to lie down for some more time motionless enjoying the heaviness in my whole body. I recalled an experience that I had last time but was lazy to record it. It goes like this.

I saw an old Chinese men with his grandson holding with sticks my enormous eyelids as if they were some kind of a tent. I could not control my laughter at that moment as this was an extremely unusual sight.

Door of Death

I suddenly realized, that if I continue lying down motionless after the smoke of Salvia lots of good insights come to my mind. This time it was about the Door of Death.

Somehow I felt I could simulate this exiting and coming back through that door without actually dying. And the first thing that came to my mind was: "If you decide to exit through this door [of Death] make sure you are not coming back only because you forgot something. This is one way door only and there is no coming back though it."

Salvia Divinorum: Forgotten Memory

This time my direct Salvia experience was not so interesting as the one one that followed right after. I mean during the intoxication I saw regullar things like small red cars, and experienced the usual "personality multiplication effect".

So after the effects of Salvia were wearing out I was lying still in my bed without any desire to move even finger, because it felt so good. Suddenly a very old memory surfaced. I even doubted: was it my memory or somebody's else. A few moments after I recalled the whole situation what happened that evening. My memory was real and it was as follows.

We were kids. Probably first, or second graders. I was on my way home from school with other friends. It was winter and it was dark. Weather temperature was around zero, so snow was starting to melt. This was ideal for snow balls and "snow wars".

I recall we entered in to some kind of disagreement with a group of other youngsters, from a yard we were passing by. We shouted and were throwing snow balls into each other. Suddenly I felt a very painful hit to my head and fell on the ground. I realized I received one of those ice snow balls, that are prepared by making a snow ball and compressing its snow so hard until it becomes icy. I remember how helpless I felt. I also recall that feeling of anger or desire to avenge at that time.

Perhaps this memory surfaced in to my conscious mind because I still was holding that anger subconsciously.

Salvia Divinorum: Child Again

This time Salvia did not produce so much smoke so I had to hold it in my lungs for longer. Nevertheless, I still had a very interesting experience. Before I forget I would like to record this: not all of the experience can be remembered, because every time I have a Salvia trip I remember I had this feeling before hundreds of times, but I cannot remember when I come back what exactly that was. So some of those experiences cannot be described, only experienced, not all of them can be remembered because of the short memory loss that happens during a trip. Still, I think, that attempt to memorize during an event is very good for memory and concentration.

So my experience can be described in following words: I guess I am getting used to it because right after Salvinorum A kicked in I knew those "multiple" personalities in me and around me were fake. I kind of laughed at this in my mind. I tried to maintain concentration on what is happening and kept by body still as any movement could destroy or distort my experience.

There was a moment when I was completely disassociated from physical reality and my body. I was transferred in time when I was a child (about 5 years old), and there was this five store building in yellow and red colors, that I understood was my home. I saw stairs and had a sensation that my other colleagues were around, they were shouting in Lithuanian "lieka" (as if ending of "trylika" - thirteen). They were counting something. My neighbors were preparing to dust their carpets right of their windows. I had this feeling that my brother going to come and fix all of this (I have no brother in my real life) or disallow them to do this.

I also remember I did not see any red organisms that usually accompany all of my experiences, I did, however, recall how strange and heavy my back felt and how enormously big I was, as if all this building was built on me.

Salvia Divinorum: Death Trainer

I took a good breath of Salvia and lied down in my bed. Soon a swirling sensation took over me. A view with red bodies appeared, as usual. This time they looked like red cars seen from above city. They were congesting the traffic. I wonder if they might be the red blood cells seen in capilars of my eyes.

Soon enough the following sensation and event followed. It felt as if I was in the trees of the forest and they were recently cut and being transported by trucks. The road they were driving was dirty. I felt my body in those logs and was mourning. I was also mourning of my brother trees that were transported by other cars. I felt I was dead. I had a usual sensation of multiple subjects around me and could not comprehend this phenomenon as I knew I must be alone.

As the effect of Salvia smoke begun to wear out I realized I was sitting on my bed with my eyes covered as if I was mourning. So I lied back in my bed. I completeley missed that moment when I got up from my bed. I just remember that the feeling of death was so intense, that I was not sure if I am still alive. For some reason death did not scare me as it used to in my first attempts. Perhaps I am getting used to this dying sensation.

I kept lying in my bed and did not want to move even a finger as my body seemed to be so heavy and cozy. I enjoyed it and desired to prolong this experience. I concentrated on my forehead where clear visions of mountains and cities appeared.

Salvia Divinorum: a Trip to 60's

This time I used earplugs to completely avoid any auditory distractions. From my previous experiences I learned that any noise can be very irritating. Also Closed my room door, took time to positively affirm myself.

After I inhaled deeply of about 5mg organic Salvia Divinorum x20 worth of smoke I lied in my bed waiting for those red organisms to appear. Not a moment to soon they have appeared and I released the fume from my lungs.

I was unable to catch that moment when the "multiplication" effect happened. By this I mean when I started disassociating myself with my body and begin to feel I am in other peaople or things. This time was very interesting because I was not even just a person or object anymore. I felt more like I was the ether on which the whole event occured or was rendered. I also was in those objects and persons and I was multiplying at enormous speed.

The whole vision, if I may call it, could be described as follows: Initialy I saw a closeup of a blue grid from a soviet truck front called "MAZ". Then the view zoomed out and I realized this truck was carrying a lot of soviet pioneers wearing their uniforms. It looked as if they were going for labor in a field and it all happened around 1960's. The truck was driving down the field road near a forest. The day was sunny and the whole atmosphere was filled with joy. Except the fact that those trucks and pioneers in them were multiplying uncontrollably and it all happened on "me". I was like that background or ether where the light produces the movie of life. I cannot describe this in other words: I was everywhere, one with everybody and everything.

There were moments when I was about to abort, but somehow I knew nothing could go wrong, I am safe. I realized I was lying on my bed and I thought I forgot to release the fume from my lungs so I breathed heavily several times. Salvia somehow effects the short term memory every time, but it comes back unaltered after its effect wears out.

So I continued to lie down on my bed without any desire to move or do anything, enjoying the last bits of this wonderfull experience and memorizing the sequences that just occured. I could say I just had the most wonderful Salvia trip so far.