Nerijus' Zelionka Astral Projection Experiments

Sky Above Italy

2010-07-07T16:59:00.002-04:00

It was extremely hot today, the afternoon sun was shining through my window. I must say I just had the most joyous Salvia trip I ever experienced.

At first I saw a continuous process of multiplication of fractals, and I had a feeling that I must give something. Then I suddenly became the sky above Italy. The view was as if I was above Mediterranean see looking from West to East toward Italy. The whole perspective was inverted upside down. The size was adjusted automatically as if my body would fit the sky, I did not feel to be too big. I could see towers of the Italian cities far away. The feeling was good, I did not want this to end and concentrated in order to prolong it.

When I woke up sweat was running all over me.

Illusion of Space

2010-06-07T18:31:00.003-04:00

I like taking a little bit of Salvia Divinorum as opposed to more because it is not so stressful upon regaining consciousness and becoming aware of reality. It is even joyous and you can recall perfectly what kind of experiences you were having minutes ago.

This time I was transferred to Lithuania, Palanga Bridge during my experience. The feelings and sensations were so intense as if I really was there. I had no doubt I was in Palanga at that moment. I saw a cloudy sky with relatively calm see, also the bridge. I was on the shore, or I was the shore itself, could not tell the difference as always during Salvia experiences.

Only after some minutes passed I begun to question my presence in that particular place, because I knew I was lying in my bed in Toronto. Still I could not understand why is there a phenomenon of space and distance, because it seamed to me as if everything in the Universe was in one place. Distance was just another illusion.

I continued to lie down for some more time motionless enjoying the heaviness in my whole body. I recalled an experience that I had last time but was lazy to record it. It goes like this.

I saw an old Chinese men with his grandson holding with sticks my enormous eyelids as if they were some kind of a tent. I could not control my laughter at that moment as this was an extremely unusual sight.

Door of Death

2010-05-01T16:14:00.002-04:00

I suddenly realized, that if I continue lying down motionless after the smoke of Salvia lots of good insights come to my mind. This time it was about the Door of Death.

Somehow I felt I could simulate this exiting and coming back through that door without actually dying. And the first thing that came to my mind was: "If you decide to exit through this door [of Death] make sure you are not coming back only because you forgot something. This is one way door only and there is no coming back though it."

Salvia Divinorum: Forgotten Memory

2010-02-24T15:34:00.004-05:00

This time my direct Salvia experience was not so interesting as the one one that followed right after. I mean during the intoxication I saw regullar things like small red cars, and experienced the usual "personality multiplication effect".

So after the effects of Salvia were wearing out I was lying still in my bed without any desire to move even finger, because it felt so good. Suddenly a very old memory surfaced. I even doubted: was it my memory or somebody's else. A few moments after I recalled the whole situation what happened that evening. My memory was real and it was as follows.

We were kids. Probably first, or second graders. I was on my way home from school with other friends. It was winter and it was dark. Weather temperature was around zero, so snow was starting to melt. This was ideal for snow balls and "snow wars".

I recall we entered in to some kind of disagreement with a group of other youngsters, from a yard we were passing by. We shouted and were throwing snow balls into each other. Suddenly I felt a very painful hit to my head and fell on the ground. I realized I received one of those ice snow balls, that are prepared by making a snow ball and compressing its snow so hard until it becomes icy. I remember how helpless I felt. I also recall that feeling of anger or desire to avenge at that time.

Perhaps this memory surfaced in to my conscious mind because I still was holding that anger subconsciously.

Salvia Divinorum: Child Again

2010-02-16T17:33:00.003-05:00

This time Salvia did not produce so much smoke so I had to hold it in my lungs for longer. Nevertheless, I still had a very interesting experience. Before I forget I would like to record this: not all of the experience can be remembered, because every time I have a Salvia trip I remember I had this feeling before hundreds of times, but I cannot remember when I come back what exactly that was. So some of those experiences cannot be described, only experienced, not all of them can be remembered because of the short memory loss that happens during a trip. Still, I think, that attempt to memorize during an event is very good for memory and concentration.

So my experience can be described in following words: I guess I am getting used to it because right after Salvinorum A kicked in I knew those "multiple" personalities in me and around me were fake. I kind of laughed at this in my mind. I tried to maintain concentration on what is happening and kept by body still as any movement could destroy or distort my experience.

There was a moment when I was completely disassociated from physical reality and my body. I was transferred in time when I was a child (about 5 years old), and there was this five store building in yellow and red colors, that I understood was my home. I saw stairs and had a sensation that my other colleagues were around, they were shouting in Lithuanian "lieka" (as if ending of "trylika" - thirteen). They were counting something. My neighbors were preparing to dust their carpets right of their windows. I had this feeling that my brother going to come and fix all of this (I have no brother in my real life) or disallow them to do this.

I also remember I did not see any red organisms that usually accompany all of my experiences, I did, however, recall how strange and heavy my back felt and how enormously big I was, as if all this building was built on me.

Salvia Divinorum: Death Trainer

2010-02-12T11:57:00.002-05:00

I took a good breath of Salvia and lied down in my bed. Soon a swirling sensation took over me. A view with red bodies appeared, as usual. This time they looked like red cars seen from above city. They were congesting the traffic. I wonder if they might be the red blood cells seen in capilars of my eyes.

Soon enough the following sensation and event followed. It felt as if I was in the trees of the forest and they were recently cut and being transported by trucks. The road they were driving was dirty. I felt my body in those logs and was mourning. I was also mourning of my brother trees that were transported by other cars. I felt I was dead. I had a usual sensation of multiple subjects around me and could not comprehend this phenomenon as I knew I must be alone.

As the effect of Salvia smoke begun to wear out I realized I was sitting on my bed with my eyes covered as if I was mourning. So I lied back in my bed. I completeley missed that moment when I got up from my bed. I just remember that the feeling of death was so intense, that I was not sure if I am still alive. For some reason death did not scare me as it used to in my first attempts. Perhaps I am getting used to this dying sensation.

I kept lying in my bed and did not want to move even a finger as my body seemed to be so heavy and cozy. I enjoyed it and desired to prolong this experience. I concentrated on my forehead where clear visions of mountains and cities appeared.

Salvia Divinorum: a Trip to 60's

2010-02-10T15:48:00.005-05:00

This time I used earplugs to completely avoid any auditory distractions. From my previous experiences I learned that any noise can be very irritating. Also Closed my room door, took time to positively affirm myself.

After I inhaled deeply of about 5mg organic Salvia Divinorum x20 worth of smoke I lied in my bed waiting for those red organisms to appear. Not a moment to soon they have appeared and I released the fume from my lungs.

I was unable to catch that moment when the "multiplication" effect happened. By this I mean when I started disassociating myself with my body and begin to feel I am in other peaople or things. This time was very interesting because I was not even just a person or object anymore. I felt more like I was the ether on which the whole event occured or was rendered. I also was in those objects and persons and I was multiplying at enormous speed.

The whole vision, if I may call it, could be described as follows: Initialy I saw a closeup of a blue grid from a soviet truck front called "MAZ". Then the view zoomed out and I realized this truck was carrying a lot of soviet pioneers wearing their uniforms. It looked as if they were going for labor in a field and it all happened around 1960's. The truck was driving down the field road near a forest. The day was sunny and the whole atmosphere was filled with joy. Except the fact that those trucks and pioneers in them were multiplying uncontrollably and it all happened on "me". I was like that background or ether where the light produces the movie of life. I cannot describe this in other words: I was everywhere, one with everybody and everything.

There were moments when I was about to abort, but somehow I knew nothing could go wrong, I am safe. I realized I was lying on my bed and I thought I forgot to release the fume from my lungs so I breathed heavily several times. Salvia somehow effects the short term memory every time, but it comes back unaltered after its effect wears out.

So I continued to lie down on my bed without any desire to move or do anything, enjoying the last bits of this wonderfull experience and memorizing the sequences that just occured. I could say I just had the most wonderful Salvia trip so far.

Salvia Divinorum: Ego Buster

2010-02-06T08:47:00.003-05:00

It is Saturday morning and I took a breath of organic Salvia. Lied in my bed and maintained my concentration and awareness. I did not catch that moment when it started I just knew it has to be superficial and illusionary. Again I saw those organisms, that compose all of the reality. This time they were bigger and looked like red bricks. There also was this feeling, that I am not alone. In fact I felt lots of others around. I called them doers, or workers. I was one of them. They all had to do something and were hurrying to bring their "tools".

I knew somehow this cannot be true, because I must be alone. Then I heard a cough in the street and corrected myself - well, not me alone, this guy as well. So there must be two of us, but no more. I was not sure why there is so many of us. Even many of "me".

The view that I saw was similar to this: it looked as if I was starring at the black pit of a well which was built using those "red bricks". Those bricks were falling to the right side dissintegrating the well and running away as if they were blown by a very strong wind. At the same time they were alive, and I felt they were becoming those "doers".

I was still trying to keep my concentration and memorize my experience wondering why there are so many of us. At the same time I felt my body was composed of several personalities, and it was huge, lying on the ground like some kind of a building. I realized I could breathe, and one of my personalities was responsible only for my lungs and breathing. My lungs were like an underground facility, or dark chamber, circulating the air.

This does not make any sense to me right now when I am back to my normal thinking, but then it was so real. I realized organic Salvia does not leave my lungs irritated. It is just very difficult to put a precise dose because it is rougher than that powder like regular Salvia substance.

Salvia Divinorum: Better Recall

2010-01-30T09:59:00.002-05:00

I tried some organic x20 Salvia this morning. My first smoke was just to try, I did not feel anything, so I repeated with a larger dose. This time I felt that irritating feeling in my throat as I inhaled, so I new the amount was about right. I lied down in bed and kept the fume in my lungs waiting for the show to commence.

Now I was able to observe everything, even the moment, I used to forget. I recall those small organisms about 2 inch long, red on the outside, yellow on the inside, with black contours. My whole reality was composed of them. They were flowing like water. My body was also composed of them. As always I had this feeling, that I am not alone, and somebody is with me. As I kept my eyes closed I sensed I am under ground, or under those small organisms and people were trying to uncover me, to excavate. They had several holes prepared. I was conscious all this time, aware of my every experience. Soon the effect started to wear out.

I realized organic Salvia has less effect on my lungs or they just got used to this irritation.

Amanita Muscaria: First Experience

2010-01-30T09:41:00.002-05:00

First I'd like to describe the effects from my previous Salvia Divinorum experience. I'd say effect while smoking is powerful but it is short lived, and it has a burning sensation on your lungs. It took about two days until this irritating sensation was gone. I am not a smoker, so this method is quite unacceptable to me. I've decided to smoke only once a week or so, or even better to buy some chewable Salvia dried leaves foliage.

Now about mushrooms. Yesterday I took about halve of a small cap. Waited up to one hour until effects started. It felt as I was lightly intoxicated by wine, except there were no bad side effects. I've got some extra salivation an my energy was sublimated to my head. This light headedness took about one and a halve hours. I reapeated the dose in the evening, taking in account, that the effect must take place right at the moment I am going to bed. Well nothing happened at that time. But, I must say, my night was full of experiences.

I had lots of dreams that night. My first that I recall was throat chakra being attacked, my second was not too pleasant as well. I used to wake up after every dream. Still with my eyes closed I was able to witness the most wonderful views. The colors were vivid and 3D. I saw a multitude of large artisan cakes as if I was in baker shop. Later I saw some wonderful and colorful architecture. I was trying to maintain my awareness and concentration to prolonge this experience.

I also recall pre-OBE vibrations ocuring that night, I just could not exploit those moments to have full blown OBE.

Salvia: Staying Aware

2010-01-28T09:25:00.003-05:00

Three days have passed since my last serious Salvia smoke. I mean, I took a weak dose yesterday, just to find out the amount which would be right for me. And I still wanted the effects from previous experiments to calm down, as sometimes I felt too overwhelmed, moments of extreme sadness and insecurity would rush over me.

So I took about 2mg Salvia and held the fume as long as possible in my lungs. I lied down. Tried to maintain a positive attitude, as I've read somewhere, that experiments with Salvia or other psychedelics must be performed only in good mood.

A few seconds after my intake a familiar sensation occurred. It felt as if I was in a field and had to deliver something somewhere, there were a lot of "me", and some other people. I did not see them, I just had this sensation. Those other people also had to deliver something, some kind of books.

This time I was aware of everything, even my physical body, I kept still, not to disturb my experience. At the same time I felt my left side of the body getting extremely large, as if it was going to cover the whole area of the field that I felt I was hovering over. No bad sensations were present this time as I was aware of this unreality.

The effect of Salvia was starting to wear out. I was continuing lying in the bed and at the same time trying to memorize everything that happened to me. I realized this experience is a very good exercise for concentration and memory. Once you loose concentration you loose awareness and start feeling this extreme insecurity and fear.

I am not sure about this, but Salvia might work as some kind of booster of your current state of emotions as well. So it is very important to get to a positive state of mind before an experiment.

Salvia x20 ~3mg: Weak Effect

2010-01-25T09:26:00.004-05:00

I started to realize the effects of Salvia yesterday, and, I think, it is not a placebo effect, because I did not know what to expect from it. So, after all, I felt much calmer, had no desire to play violent video games, or ingest any unhealthy or fatty foods, even meat. My sexual urges were absent, or sublimated, I felt like all my energy is in the head, because it was aching a little and it felt like after a good dose of Pranayama.

I could say how much my perspective on life has changed, because I understood how little we need so the chemical balance in the brain would change and one may live in hell permanently. That, perhaps, may also be until one adapts to to that new condition.

This morning I tried to establish the dose where I still remain aware of the surroundings and my psyche. I took approximately 3mg of Salvia x20 smoked it in one breath and held it for a couple of seconds. My heartbeat and blood pressure increased enormously. I kept my eyes open and waited for this strange pressing feeling to come over me but it never came. So I understood the dose was just right or too week and closed my eyes.

Soon I began to feel the twisting motion: my left hand was moving upward, while my right arm was dipping down. I was aware of this phenomenon and stayed lying in my bed still. No visual hallucination was present. My body became weightless, only irritation of smoke in my throat distracted me. I also had this unpleasant association of the Salvia smoke taste and the fear that I used to accompany my experience in my previous attempts.

I slept for 4-5 hours last night waking up and falling asleep back again, so I felt a little sleepy. This was gone completely after I took the smoke.

I've just read online Salvia helps cure addictions, even crack or cocaine. I think that might work, because until now I feel my behavior pattern has changed a lot, and I did not want this or expect this. It just happened. As I have mentioned before I feel balanced and have no desire to indulge myself in any harmful habitual activity, or strong emotions, or ingest any unhealthy food.

Salvia Experiment: Reality Eaters

2010-01-24T09:22:00.000-05:00

Early morning. I smoked five milligrams of Salvia x20. As I prepared I lied down in my bed still holding the fume in my lungs. Soon the strange "pressure" started and I released the smoke. Again I could not catch that moment when my consciousness drifted away. A view of hundred strange small organisms appeared. They were consuming my "reality" from my left side. I wanted this to stop immediately, but somehow I knew this is just a dream and it will end soon. My memory of anything was lost. There were only those little organisms and myself lying like a giant composed of hundreds of small "me". They were acting on my command and it looked like a wave. I opened my eyes and recalled that I've just smoked something as I had that irritating feeling in my throat. Still not fully conscious I thought how could I have lied in the bed, I completely missed that moment. I moved my physical head a little and this confirmed that this was just a bad dream, but somehow it was not ending. I still felt that uncomfortable feeling of not being able to control my psychological state and my awareness. The experience was terrible, but not as my first experience, because I have pre-programmed myself that everything will be fine. Soon I became aware what happened and was so extremely happy to return to normal.

My First Salvia Experiment

2010-01-24T09:20:00.002-05:00

It was evening. I just came back from Toronto downtown with a bong, torch lighter and a gram of x20 Salvia Divinorum. First I started with just bits of Salvia, smoked - nothing happened. After five minutes decided to repeat with approximately 5 milligrams. I smoked it and was holding my breath also holding the bong at my lips. I completely did not know what to expect. I felt like a warm wave of pressure was occupying my left side, then a strange feeling of anxiety took over my. There was this feeling that I am going to die very soon and I have to say good bye to every one. I was still with my opened eyes and half conscious, perfectly controlling my physical body. So I was about to run downstairs, I put down my bong on the floor. The feeling of death was so intense that I almost panicked, but it also was so familiar, as if that was coming from my previous dreams or nightmares. Then, as I was leaving my room I realized that it was some kind of experiment I was doing and it went wrong. I was so sorry about this. I returned to my bed and was sitting there for a moment. Now more conscious I was staring at the floor and observed how light my body is and that I actually do not even feel it. It was like I was a point of observation. Sweat was all over me. That feeling of death was following me till night and I felt depressed, but it changed my perspective on life, I wasn't sure so much about anything.

OBE invoked by Indian Chants

2009-02-19T11:29:00.002-05:00

I dreamed I was in my childhood room with my mother and grandma. I with my mother decided to take a walk in town, not physically but out of body.

My mother and grandma stacked thumbs on one another and started some kind of an Indian chant. As I was running around the room I felt how strong those chants were because I suddenly felt pre-OBE vibrations. For one second I felt vibrations and another I was already out of my body. This was the fastest and the most effortless exit I ever had.

So I flew through the window of my room to the street, and jumped on a rough asphalt. I was barefoot, but I could not feel any pain in my soles. I decided to say hi to my dad and flew to his window on the second floor. I called him, but he was unable to see me, only hear me. Therefore I decided I was invisible.

Later I transferred myself to the neighbor house, just to see what my friend was doing. All the windows were shut and covered in plastic as if they were preparing to move. I flew inside, there were 2 beds wrapped in plastic. My friend was relaxing in a chair. She immediately noticed me even I thought I was invisible. We talked for some time. Then I heard her mother called her because she had to go to the school. She jumped and kissed me for goodby. She was about to run, but suddenly returned and kissed me, this time french style as I felt her tongue going deeper in to my mouth. Deeper and deeper until this became uncomfortable, so at this point I returned to my body and woke up.

While still lying in my bed I was wondering how diffrerent I was in my OBE. Even if I was conscious I still behaved very differently than I would behave in the real world. It was as if I was a 7 year old, and the level of knowledge was somehow limited.

Astral Projection Chamber

2009-02-16T22:09:00.002-05:00

I was dreaming I was standing in line with some other people for Astral Projection Room Experience. I mean, there was some kind of entertainment where you enter the special room and you leave your body at will.

So I entered that room and as soon as the session commenced I felt pre-OBE vibrations took over my body and sensation of separation occurred. I could not see anything for some seconds but not a moment too late my vision kicked in and I realized I was floating at the ceiling of some kind of a cellar. Not a pleasant sensation as the cellar was very abandoned and many broken peaces of wood were lying on the ground.

I took control of my light body and flew around the room, then left to the corridor. I wondered where all those people had disappeared that projected together with me and decided to search for them.

I found some kind of an old lady, she was speaking to me, but I could not hear a word, actually I could not hear any sound at all. Suddenly I felt she performed some kind of magic on me as I felt by body shrinking. I felt my tiny limbs and tried to counteract her tricks with my will power.

Apparently my out of body session was over so I returned to my body in that room, still in the lucid dream state. As people were leaving I decided to hide in the room so I can have another session of free OBE experience. I got lucky because after some moments pre-OBE vibrations kicked me again. Unfortunately, I was running low on my energy, so I had to cancel this attempt to leave my body and returned to my physical reality in my bedroom.

Waking Up at Will

2008-12-28T09:33:00.002-05:00

I do not recall the whole experience, just remember there was a lot of flying and falling in that OBE. Perhaps I wanted to overcome whats left of my fear of highs.

I would lift myself up to the clouds and then skydive or, the last one, I remember, I was standing on the edge of the balcony on the 3rd floor and then dive down into the lawn below. As I was about to hit the ground I wanted to stop right before it, but it did not work as I expected and I landed with a feeling as if I fell into a giant puffy pillow.

Later I experimented how fast could I return to my physical body or wake up. So I just thought about it very intensely and woke up. But when I woke up one more time I realized the first time was waking up into another dream, and the second - was returning to physical reality.

Kundalini Awakening

2008-12-19T12:48:00.002-05:00

I remember I had this experience a few nights ago. I was sleeping in my bed at night, and had that sensation as if somebody connected my spine to an electrical outlet. Initially this feeling was weak, at the base of the spine, it made me conscious, but I still was asleep. The sensation of electrical tension traversed along my spine making me "unfold". I mean, I was lying in a fetus position, but as I got that immense current running up my spine I was forced to straighten up my spine, even bend it opposite direction, by expanding my chest and leaning my head backwards.

This current was tensing my whole spine, and the sensation was stopping at my throat, it seams there was a blockage at my 5th chakra, so the current could not pass. I almost panicked at that time and was afraid the current will pop the blockage like a cork and continue to my brain. This caused me to wake up and the experience ceased.

I recall having very similar experiences before, but the current was able to travel up my spine up to the level of my navel, which is the 3rd chakra. It was trying to overcome the obstacle by bouncing up and down several times. That was a pleasant, but at the same time scary sensation.

Only later I understood that was the mystic Kundalini or, in other words, latent nervous energy traveling up my spine, I was glad I could remember this experience.

Dive into Ether

2008-11-30T07:59:00.003-05:00

I enjoy the variety of experience when projecting astrally. Tonight's one was short, but memorable. I was using Chi generator and energy transfer couple when sleeping so this gave me some extra boost. I probably had too much of this boost because I was waking up every 30 min and I found myself holding the air involuntarily - this was also affecting my sleep.

As I recall I became conscious in my dream, and as soon as that happened I felt like I dove into a pitch black ether. The dive was very soft; my sensory perception was shut off for a few moments. I could not see, feel or hear anything. Some moments after I could distinguish a repeating pattern of while plastic like, round shaped ornaments. They were covering the ether sea and forming big calm waves.

Some kind of repeating pattern view emerges every time before plunging into the astral plane, so I knew I could develop this experience into a successful OBE, but I held air involuntary in my physical lungs and I was forced to discontinue, this returned me into my body.

Rapid Morph

2008-11-27T14:40:00.002-05:00

That one was quite an experience, I regret I had no time to write it down earlier, so I forgot most of the events.

There has been about 2 months since I had my last Out of Body Experience (OBE) that I would be able to recall. As I remember it was an early morning. I became conscious of my pre-OBE vibrations, but I did not become excited so I maintained them without waking up completely. It seemed to me as if those vibrations continued for the whole eternity and I was still in my body. I have realized I have lost my habit of separation, so I needed more energy to do that. I applied more attention on my forehead and simulated the falling backward sensation. As the result of this vibrations increased, my heart chakra was working overtime.

Suddainly everything blacked out and a view of remote field at night emerged. I focused on it and flew closer. Some object brought my attention, it was changing its shape and form very rapidly, morphing constantly. I know these weird things happen due to the lack of concentration; so I focused more energy on this thing and morphing slowed until object became stable. It was some kind of a metal warehouse, as I was carried by astral wind I saw a multitude of these buildings, the whole city in fact.

Later I was witnesing uncontrolled transitions from one view to another. There were street views from various towns and cities, as I understand. Lone people walking in the morning. I remember I could not control anything whatsoever, but I enjoyed the views and the sensation of flight.

A Journey to the Mars

2008-11-23T12:46:00.003-05:00

It was about 6 AM and I was lying in my bed just returned from an OBE which was not so interesting so I will not waste any space on that. But what followed right after that was unusual.

As I continued to witness lucid visions appearing in front of my eyes I suddenly felt Astral vision kicked in, and I was able to see trough my closed eyelids. A repeating wall pattern from my childhood emerged and I realized this could be a perfect opportunity to have another OBE. Just as I thought, pre-OBE vibrations took over me, and I was struggling to separate from my physical body. After few attempts I applied concentration on my forehead and chanted AUM several times; this worked wonderfully and I felt vibrations increasing by 3 times - I finally got out.

A view of a window emerged, it was dark outside, just one remote star shining in the dark blue sky. I remembered I had a desire to visit other planets before in my astral projections. As I thought of that I felt some mysterious force took me out of the room outside, and I flew over some dark fields. I let it happen. Then the same force took me upward and I felt distancing from the Earth. This felt uncomfortable, but I kept calming myself down with the idea, that this is only my fantasy.

A few moments later, I discovered I was transferred near the planet Mars. I could see its atmosphere, clouds, water. It looked like our Earth, except, it had those specific continents. A female voice similar to that we hear on the National Geographic channel explained me the structure of the planet. I returned to my body.

I thought this was an incredible journey, my first astral projection attempt beyond Earth.

OBE: Lucid to Astral

2007-01-07T14:22:00.000-05:00

I dreamed I was sitting on a large balcony of some unknown condominium. It was 10th floor or something. I was facing the building, there were some old age persons around me. I looked down and realized that my feet were barely touching the floor, I just saw green grass far below me. I understood there was something wrong – I must be dreaming. I was right. I became lucid and let myself to have some fun. This time I was about to challenge myself to not be afraid of any heights. So I had jumped from the balcony and stopped at will right before hitting the ground.

When I looked up, and I could recognize my childhood yard and a condominium near it. I ran towards that building and jumped from one window to the upper one till I reached the top. Then without turning backwards or checking the height I fell down from the roof on my back. I thought this falling might invoke an OBE exit, because there is a very similar technique for that.

As soon as I thought of it the pre-OBE vibrations took over my body and I felt my heart chakra working 300bpm. I became conscious of my physical body for a short period of time, but suddenly a view of my childhood room at grandma's house appeared. I was out of my body.

I stood on the twin bed. Bellow I had noticed a guy from my childhood that used to abuse me. We used to train Roman-Greek wrestling together. He jumped at me. I threw him with no force on the bed. Soon afterwards I noticed one of my cousins standing in his place, and he also jumped at me.

I got bored with them, and looked what I could do some more serious. I decided to pay a close attention to my astral body. I order to do that I thought it would be a good idea to do some Kriya Yoga techniques. So I sat into a lotus posture. I felt no pain or strain whatsoever. There were strange ligh brown socks on my feet, though. I also considered that I did not have to breathe like I did in the physical plane, I just had to move the prana with my awareness. As soon as I was prepared to perform some serious exercises I heard a flush in my toilet and this failed my OBE.

Astral Projection: Experiments on Smelling

2007-01-03T10:10:00.000-05:00

I had projected astrally in to some kind of a mansion, as I understood later. I floated in one of its rooms, and realized that everybody is getting outside. My old friend, Kazimieras, had a problem with walking so I took him on to my shoulder – he was quite a load. I decided to make him lighter with my mind. His weight had decreased immediately – I could carry him in one of my hands.

I got outside, ran around the mansion, moved through a thick bush, then walked on the edge of the fence. When I realized that fence is not going where I want I continued my walk on a thin air. I had approached three people, they were standing and talking, I could not hear a word they were saying.

I flew to one of the roof windows, there were also three people playing cards. They seemed did not notice me. Perhaps I was invisible to them. They looked quite odd, very characteristic, unusual faces. I knew Astral Plane to be very unstable, and I wanted to test it. So I remembered the look of those people and turned my head backward. Then looked back at them – they did not change. I used to do this kind of test on environment and it would change drastically.

I moved to their room straight through the window glass, they did not notice me. I was moving slowly on the floor, then through a door to a lobby. I remembered I wanted to test the sensations of smell and taste last time on the Astral Plane. As I thought about the smell sensation, I could actually smell things that were lying besides me. I found a small stone and put it near my nose, so I could smell it. Perhaps I inhaled not even with my astral nose, but with my physical nose as well, because this action almost failed my OBE – my physical body sensations started to emerge.

I concentrated on my heart chakra once more and returned to the mansion to continue my projection. This time I saw a girl sleeping in a bed and for some reason payed attention to the sounds. My hands were touching the floor and they made a squeezing noise. So my tactile, audio and visual sensations were working simultaneously. Then those three earlier mentioned people walked by, they talked, but still I could not hear a word.

I consciously reintegrated with my physical body bypassing the Real Time Zone. After I woke up I realized I do not have to inhale in order to smell things on the Astral Plane, I just have to think about them. Astral nose does not have to inhale, it works differently form the physical counterpart. Perhaps the sense of taste works in the similar fashion.

OBE: Materialization Experiment

2006-12-30T13:11:00.000-05:00

I woke up in the morning, but it was still dark outside so I decided to stay in bed for a while. As usual I was in my favorite trance state observing images generated by my mind. I was trying to catch that moment when my body falls asleep, at the same time keeping my consciousness awake so I would be able to witness that moment.

I think I went unconscious for a second or too, but after that I realized I could see even my my closed eyes were closed. This was a natural occurrence to me – so called astral sight. Usually after this phenomenon happens I wake up, but this time I did not get too excited so I gave a try for an OBE. I still could see some unknown yellow wall pattern with my astral eyes. For some reason I thought I am at my late grandmas house, even I knew I was lying in my own bedroom. I applied the “Falling” technique, and the pre-OBE vibrations commenced. I just kept calm and concentrated on my forehead to trigger the exit. It took a bout 20 seconds till the Astral view emerged. I could hear the voices of children, probably it was from outside of my actual bedroom.

When I successfully projected into my grandmas living room the view was still unclear, but it got better after a few moments. I dissociated completely from my physical body and now I could not just see but touch as well. It was nice day outside, the wind was blowing leaves on the ground. It was amazingly quiet, however. I flew through the window glass to take a look outside. I was so light I was afraid to be carried by that wind. Nevertheless I made up my mind to resist it and made to the neighbor house. It was empty. I turned around before entering it and glanced to the sky. It had an awesome blue color and a few clouds. No Sun, as usual, just the omnipresent light.

I touched my hands, looked at them. They were thicker. My tactile sensations were not as powerful as in the physical world. I flew to the neighbor house. This time I could freely move through the multitude of walls and other objects without failing my projection, maybe because I was pre-imagining what I was expecting beyond those walls.

I floated outside and decided to make a flying speed test. I observed a line of trees standing further – they were perfect to measure my speed, and flew there. I have noticed it was hard to maintain high speed and astral projection at the same time. It required more concentration and energy, the physical reality started to emerge – I understood by physical body was lying on the belly in a very uncomfortable position, this made reentering to the Astral Plane even more difficult. I had sent more energy to my chakras and enjoyed the flight for some more time.

This time I could see a pond with enormous waves, ducks and black cats. I knew they were the symbols of something. Cats – probably my past habits.

Then I returned to the grandmas yard. I had an idea to experiment with materializations. I found a ladder and started to climb it without the ladder touching any support point. I held it with my mind. After it ended I successfully climbed on a thin air. I had decided to make a room hanging in the air. It materialized after a few attempts, but not exactly what I was expecting. If I could make a room, why not to make a human. This was not so easy. Actually, the funny thing happened: one of my former classmates brought a person to me that, I understood, was the result of my experiment. That person changed its appearance very frequently, approximately 10 times per second. It was very unstable. It took a form of a girl, or a boy, every time different face. It was morphing from one appearance to another.

That was enough for today, I thought, and gradually returned to the physical reality. Next time I will probably experiment with the senses of smell and taste, because I do not recall having them active in any of my OBE's.

Short Visit to the Real Time Zone

2006-12-29T11:11:00.000-05:00

It was about a month since I remember having my last OBE. Maybe my Kriya routine was grounding me too much.

Last night I took a very hot shower visualizing the white light pouring through my body. It helps to get rid of negative energy. Then I performed my usual Kriya routine and lied in my bed. I kept on “bouncing” my energy body for several minutes, felt tingling and heaviness. I went to sleep with the determination to have an OBE.

I dreamt of me being in a dark [hotel] room. There was my sister and my former classmate Erikas chatting in bed right beside me. I thought this was reality. They were chatting too loud, and I was about to silence them, but I felt the first OBE symptoms – my Heart chakra gave me an outburst of energy. I prepared in order to be successful in my Astral Projection, so I concentrated on my exit.

Soon afterwards non-colored view of unknown ceiling emerged – the sign of my exit. I knew I was in the Real Time Zone, a place between the Physical environment and the Astral Plane. Usually I pass this medium very quickly or go straight to the Astral Plane. This time I was stuck in there, and my physical body was holding me tight. I could move my imaginary hands and see them. They appeared as transparent watery limbs. This was not new to me. The same happened to my legs – they were moving freely. The problem was I could not detach my trunk and head. I concentrated all my will in order to make a jump, but all I could do was to turn inside me. Or if I tried to move away it was as if I moved through honey – it was extremely slow.

Not enough I was scared of the attack from an evil astral entity even if there was no one besides me in that space and time. Soon after that I felt I was back in that hotel room. I thought I had reintegrated with my physical body, but when I woke up in my bedroom I realized this was just a dream. But the OBE was real.

Astral Projection: Wall Climbing Experiment

2006-12-28T12:22:00.000-05:00

After the view cleared up I was able to recognize the environment of my Astral Projection. It was my school I used to attend when I was a kid. I stood in a shade of it. Was strange, because I knew the light is omni-direct in the Astral Plane, no Sun or any other source of light was present.

I have decided to exercise some weightlessness, so I started to ascend one of the walls of the school. I kept my body horizontally to the ground so only my feet were sticking to the wall. I kept on walking in such a manner until I have reached the roof. Observed the panorama. As my school was built on the hill the view was awesome, the whole part of my native town was visible.

Suddenly I transported myself near the back entrance of the school. Some of my former schoolmates were walking by me. One of them even touched my shoulder as he was passing by. It was Darius.

After a couple of moments I found myself on the roof again. This time I neared an edge of the roof and decided to experiment with the descending in the similar manner I did with ascending, only I was facing the ground. I stepped several steps, my feet were sticking to the wall. Soon I realized the contact was not so strong (maybe because I still was afraid of the height) and I started to slip, afterwards I started to fall. Even I felt from the height of 20 meters and hit the asphalt I did not feel any pain because I have chosen not to.

Soon afterwards I came back to my physical awareness.

Real Time Zone OBE: Moon At My Forehead

2006-03-29T13:55:00.000-05:00

I dreamt I was in a room with a girl lying on the floor. Perhaps she was sleeping. That was surprising, because a bed was right beside her.

I walked to a sink with a mirror in the same room and looked at my face. I felt everything started to tremble. It felt like a pre-OBE exit sensation. I did not realize I was dreaming I thought this is for real, so I looked around myself in case I fall down unconscious. Trembling sensations seized.

I took another look at myself in the mirror. Everything started to shake again like in "Butterfly Effect" movie. I was still worried about the girl lying on the floor, so I discontinued my experiment for a moment.

However, the mirror was attracting my like a magnet and I gazed once more into reflection of my forehead in it. This shook me right up from my foot. Everything happened so fast – I noticed an image of the full moon on my forehead in the mirror and I felt leaving my body.

After that, I could see a close up view of my chin for a couple of seconds. Then I intermittently saw my bed that my physical body was lying in. I realized I am out of body in the Real Time Zone, but still my physical body was attracting my astral double so I attempted to jump further from it. I have tried several more times, but I was unable to escape the traction of my physical body. Finally I woke up.

Dream: The Lift

2006-02-11T10:55:00.000-05:00

I walked through the corridors of my high school. I was on the first floor. It was going dark outside. There were some other pupils around. I have decided to take a look from the roof of the school. I asked one of the responsible pupils to let me go up there. I knew there was a window leading straight on the roof and I could see it from the place I was in, but the person pointed me to the chair, which was supposed to take lift me up there.

I did not even have a time to sit on that chair when it started to move up. I knew the lift personnel did it on purpose. I just grabbed the chair with my hands and tried to hold on. It was speeding so fast that I even felt the wind blowing. I made my best attempt to hold on to that chair. I knew the roof should be already there, but the chair kept on going. It was a complete darkness in that lift tunnel. I was afraid my hands will get tired and I eventually go down and kill myself. The lift continued to speed for about a minute.

At that pace, I should have made about 2 kilometers, but when I finally arrived and stepped out of the lift tunnel, I realized I was on the roof of my school, which was about 15 meters up from the ground. I looked around. There were some more tunnels leading down. The roof was a popular place among pupils and teachers, I thought, but for now, I was alone there. I also noticed an alternate way that I could use in order to get down from the roof.

For the next few minutes, I was trying to let the lift rope down to the lift personnel because I felt that I am done with the school and I am not going to return there.

Experience: Astral Sight & pre-OBE Vibrations

2006-02-10T10:37:00.000-05:00

This has been a long time since I had a proper OBE last time. I wondered that maybe I ceased to have those experiences because I resumed practicing the grounding techniques.

Yesterday I decided to skip my usual “5 Tibetans” and the grounding exercises routine because a day before I had over-practiced my meditation with the Audio/Visual stimulation device. In other words - I had a headache.

This morning I suddenly realized I could see through my closed eyelids. This experience was quite often to me. I was seeing my childhood room. It was all black & white. My gaze was fixed in one point of the window. I could also observe some toys on the TV set with my peripheral vision (I do not know if that is the correct expression, because there is no such a thing with astral sight – everything you see is clear and sharp even if it is not in the center of your perception, anyway). For some reason I was anxious to meet a ghost, I even tried to visualize an angel.

Then I moved my point of view at the ceiling, as if I was lying on my back. I have noticed a hole on it. It took me a while to realize, that there should be a lamp hanging out at that spot.

It is an interesting thing – I always see some kind of hole before my OBE if the astral sight is active at that moment. I guess that hole works as a gate between the two worlds – the Real Time Zone and the Astral world.

Soon afterwards, the famous pre-OBE vibrations took over my body and it continued for about a minute. I was waiting relaxed for the separation to happen, but I was still in my body. I tried to do a couple more tricks like Full Body Circuit or Third Eye Trigger, but nothing helped – vibrations were going on and I was still in my body. Finally, I chanted my Babaji’s mantra, the vibrations increased several times; I got excited and I failed my exit. I fell asleep soon afterwards.

Lucid Dream: Saving a Friend

2006-02-06T11:03:00.000-05:00

I guess that was a lucid dream as opposed to an astral projection, because I did not experience any pre-OBE symptoms. The images I saw were very clear and sharp.

I was hanging around some kind of a house at night. I knew it was my native town, Raseiniai. I felt I was there before. I have decided to look inside that building so I entered it straight though a wall. It was a multistoried house with several rooms. The light was lit inside and I could see children sitting or playing on beds in they rooms. I knew an old man that kept them locked was using them in his porno movies and was abusing them badly.

I kept flying through the stores of the building unnoticed. On the topmost store, I found one of my childhood friends. I did not ask any questions; just grabbed him and we flew away to my parents’ house so fast nobody could notice our escape. I turned around. There were wireworks at the place we just escaped.

Dream: Martial Arts Expo

2006-01-26T09:33:00.000-05:00

I dreamt I was in a long, dimly lit, yellow hallway. I think there was some kind of martial artists’ exposition going on. Every fighting expert had his own space. There were no many visitors; perhaps I was the only one interested.

I came closer to one of the ninjas (A feudal Japanese group of spies and assassins). He was in black, with his full armament, face covered. His body was suspended in the air, head down and there were no strings attached – he was levitating for real. There were two another people fighting with swords. They were moving extremely fast. I could also see two Greco-Roman wrestlers throwing each other alternately in the ring. I had that feeling I was in a 3D computer game. Colors, sounds, speed were very similar.

Experiment: Locked Up

2006-01-25T10:38:00.000-05:00

I encountered this kind of experiment in one Chinese movie. Perhaps, it was called "Fist Of The Red Dragon". In that movie father locked his son in a blind room so he can overcome his addiction to the cocaine. The son spent a week seeing no light no food, just living on water, I guess.

I asked my friend to do the same experiment with me. I had no addictions to overcome, but I just wanted to get that feeling of being locked up. I felt that would help me to eliminate any distractions that I would encounter during the day so I could concentrate solely on my self-development. I took some water for drinking and a bowel for urine. I asked my friend to lock me up for 36 hours and do not let me out even if I asked. I knew nothing serious could happen during this period to me. In case of the emergency, I could use my window.

I spent about my first 5 hours in my room meditating, reading Yoga philosophy and thinking. Of course, hunger would kick in, but it would disappear after an hour or so. I kept on observing my mind how jumpy it was. I would think do that and that, but after a few moments I would realize that I am locked up and cannot do much about it. After approximately two hours, my mind would settle down, I would experience moments of bliss and peace taking me over. My mind had lost its inert qualities and impulsiveness. I felt I was more centered, calm and happy.

When 36 hours had expired and my friend came to unlock me, I remember I did not want to leave my room and involve myself into the worldly activities again. I repeated this experiment the next weekend and probably five more times.

Vision: Known and yet Unknown Faces

2006-01-24T11:43:00.000-05:00

I was in my room. There was a multiple mirror in front of me. I could see my face in it. It was changed. I could hardly recognize myself. Long hair, mean look, maybe it was a face form one of my previous lives.

After a moment, I could see another faces looking at me in that mirror. They were mostly of the Japanese or Chinese origin. The mirror had three sections, so I could see three different faces looking at me at the same time. After a few seconds, yet another group of faces would appear to me. They all looked to me as modern warriors; they all had that courageous look on their faces. I felt they were friends to me once, maybe in my previous life.

Nightmare: Giant Spider

2006-01-21T10:58:00.000-05:00

I was somewhere in mountains. I could see huge stone rocks lying around me. It was a cloudy day. I could hear something nearing to me. Its steps were heavy and frequent. I was very frightened when I realized that it was a giant gray spider about 10 feet tall. He noticed me and stopped for a moment. I did not even attempt to move. He spitted some kind of a rope on me; I guess that was his net. I moved promptly to my left and avoided the collision.

Now I was sure he did not like me, so I ran in panic to hide somewhere. I found a cave of rocks and observed my opponent through a slit. He noticed me, moved forwards and started his heavy artillery again. I felt his nets touching me, but it did not hurt, it just was a very unpleasant sensation. Not enough, I was unable to find any exit from the cave that moment. I was trapped... I woke up.

Vision: Sailing Away

2006-01-20T10:35:00.000-05:00

I wore my blue school uniform. I was in a bar-club or something. There was a loud house music playing, lots of young people cheering and drinking shots around me. I realized this does not entertain me any more so I decided to take off. I walked across the dance floor. My mother tried to stop me on my way. I ignored her, took my prepared backpack and exited the room.

I noticed the stairs leading up. It was night outside. I climbed up the stairs and realized we were on a ship. I felt how the floor was moving under my feet. I looked around myself. That was a new, strong and clean ship. Its every detail was made of steel. I did not notice anybody controlling the ship so I ran upstairs, where the captain’s cabin and the wheel was supposed to be. From there I could see an even better view.

I fell in love with that ship. There was a sense of security and firmness, satisfaction and calmness, love and acknowledgement. I took the wheel into my hands and sailed through the ocean.

Astral Projection: Astral Projectors Meeting

2006-01-19T09:23:00.000-05:00

When I separated from my physical body, I felt I was carried away by a slow astral wind towards some kind of a building. I was outside. The sky was clear and blue. I recognized that building – it was my college, though changed.

I flew to the yard of the college. There were about 100 people hanging around in small groups and discussing. They all looked intelligent, artistic and happy. For some reason I felt they all were local astral projectors. I flew slowly above their heads. Nobody noticed me except one dark-haired girl about 20 years old. She was staring at me with a smile. Her eyes were sparkling with energy. I felt I met her before.

I kept on flying and decided to look inside the building. I tried to enter straight through the wall. I was confused for a moment and almost reintegrated with my physical body, but I forced my astral double not to come back and kept on navigating through the building.

I was in a bedroom with ancient furniture. In the middle of the room, there was a huge bed. There was someone hiding under the red bed sheets. I moved closer to it. It moved and I joined my physical body.

Vision: Materialized Wine

2006-01-18T10:54:00.000-05:00

It was night. The area that I was observing was lit. There was a wagon. It looked as if somebody was living in it. I noticed a man, about 40 years old. He was slim, baldheaded, not shaved, black leather jacket, blue worn out jeans. He resembled myself in some way, but was older.

He was completely relaxed and smoked a cigarette while moving things around and walking in the yard near the wagon. I watched him as if I was behind the bushes hiding, but I felt he knew I was there.

He came to the wagon, threw a bucket on the ground, kicked it slightly so its position would be right under one of the two faucets. I guess these were for hot and cold water. He knew I was observing him so he performed a trick. He let the water flow from both of the faucets. I could notice how he turned the hot water into red wine and the cold water into white. He was talking with me in my mind and explaining his philosophy. None of it I can recall. I just remember everything was very mystical.

Dream: Restaurant Cats

2006-01-17T10:33:00.000-05:00

I dreamt I was lying on bed on my right side. My right arm was under my head, palm up. I could hear a party was going on and a sound of loud house music was flowing from the neighbor room. My eyes were open and I saw how a woman approached my bed. I remember I saw her on one of the Realty TV shows. I did not like her very much but she had very beautiful blue eyes.

She uncovered my bedclothes and sneaked under it. My hand was still lying palm up and she laid in such a way that her breast was right on my palm. That was a pleasant sensation and I kept exploring her breast she was positive too. I was still sleepy so we were lying for some time besides each other touching lightly.

Suddenly, I guess that was my mother, came and uncovered our bed sheets saying that we have to make some place for yet another person...

Right after that, I had another dream where I was in the old town of Vilnius. It was dark at night, some street lights were on. I was walking down the street with one of my old friends. I said good-bye to him, I stopped and he went further. I turned right - there was a glass door of a hotel and I rang a doorbell. I saw my reflection on the glass door. I was wearing my favorite T-shirt and my favorite velvet pants.

I had no idea why I rang that bell, the place was unknown, and so I was also thinking to myself what kind of excuse would be good in case someone will open that door. I waited for about 3 minutes then I saw someone coming down the stairs from the second floor. It was a woman in her nightdress.

She opened the door, but because it was dark, I could not see her. She said, “I will open it for you.” and invited me inside. When I came, I could see it was morning outside that house, everything was suddenly lit. She was a very beautiful curly-red-haired woman. I saw the high-class restaurant tables with red tablecloths and silver tools in that room. When I asked what place is it she replied it is an IT company. I mentioned I am an IT professional and I am happy to be here.

We went through that restaurant and she showed me my bed, asked to wait and went to do my breakfast. There were many beds covered in red with white ornaments. While I was waiting, I observed two cats in black-n-white fur playing in the restaurant. They noticed me and ran closer to me. I stroked one of them once. It jumped on my bed. As I was lying on my back, my left arm was extended and lying besides my head. I felt how the cat played with my arm. Suddenly I experienced some kind of a sucking sensation on my arm. I glanced at the cat. He was trying to suck my arm with his penis. I shook my arm in disgust and woke up. I still could hear the voice of the angry cat as he was flying away from me.

Vision: Old Man

2006-01-16T12:17:00.000-05:00

I saw a street, possibly a street in Toronto. There were stylized skyscrapers on both sides of the street. It looked like a cartoon. There were no people or any sound. It was very tranquil. The sky was clear blue, with almost no clouds.

When I observed the street for the next time I noticed an old man, at least his walking style was of an old man. He was walking towards me down the street leaning his arm on the sidewalk. His steps were unsteady. He looked smutty from head to toe.

I descended down to him. We sat on the stairs in shade and talked. His eyes were wise. He resembled Bruce Lee. It is a pity because I cannot recall a word from our conversation.

Experiment: Effortless Visualization

2006-01-15T11:51:00.000-05:00

I was meditating yesterday with my Auditory and Visual stimulation device (a binaural beats, neurological technology) called MindSpa. I was using a middle Theta brain wave pattern preset in that case. After about 15-18 minutes of meditation, I could observe images flashing in my minds eye. As in theory, Theta brainwaves help to promote ones creativity and visualization. I could experience this phenomenon in practice.

I attempted to take control of those images and started to visualize my room. This was so easy and effortless. I just saw my room with no strain on my memory. The view was not very clear, it could be better if I tried, but I could recognize some objects' details and textures. Then I decided to switch my mind among different known physical locations. Again, I saw those places effortlessly.

Dream: Wrestlers

2006-01-14T11:45:00.000-05:00

Place of action: my grandma’s house. I met my childhood’s friend Erikas. We used to practice Greek-Roman Wrestling as well as the other martial arts together. In addition, we were classmates and good friends. He used to fight me most of the time, because he was much heavier than I was.

We entered one of the rooms; it was lit superficially. I suggested us to fight because it was a long time since we tried our skills together. I was setting up the mats for our fighting while I was talking. He was unsure about Karate, but I was able to convince him to wrestle with me.

We shook our hands, but he did not release mine, and attempted to perform some kind of a throw on me. I was faster and inflicted pain on his hand. I threw him on the ground immediately. He became nervous and stood up promptly. We fought again. This time he tried to throw me by my arm, but I was faster and locked his hands behind him using my legs and arms. He collapsed on the ground and could do nothing but tap the ground just to show he is giving up.

He was unhappy, but tried to hide it. He asked me to come outside the building because he was anxious to show me something. He was holding me on my clothing by my throat all the time we walked. Then he was trying to inflict pain on my left arm but my counterattack was successful, so I was in control. I was holding him by his arm so he could not perform any tricks on me again. We came to a big steel construction and I released his arm.

He showed me some kind of a Digital Audio Tape, and asked if I want to have it back, because he was anxious to destroy it in revenge. I could also see some 5.5” floppy diskettes lying on the dirty ground. I understood there was my electronic dance music recorded on them that I made during my university times. I was aware the Chernobyl Computer virus destroyed all of those files. I also knew I had the same audio data backed up on my CDs so I encouraged him to destroy it all. He destroyed the DAT by his foot in no time.

I turned my back on him and returned to the house. I met my uncle in the kitchen. He was having a discussion with my grandma, his mother. I reached for a drink then went to the bedroom. My neighbor Jenny, was there preparing some kind of lamb dish. She was talking constantly, laughing and throwing peaces of orange onto the lamb dish while it was cooking. Erikas entered the room, but now he looked as my cousin Mindaugas. He laid down on a bed and listened to Jenny.

Astral Projection: Flying Rider (47)

2006-01-13T10:50:00.000-05:00

I was thrown out of my body somewhere I could see nothing but endless ground covered by snow. There was a clear blue sky above me. I noticed I was barefoot, but I could not feel the cold of the snow because decided not to.

I walked several steps, turned around – there were no signs of my footsteps. I observed the beautiful sky once more. There was a black spot moving from left to right. I lifted myself closer to it using my will power. Now I could recognize a horse. It was running in the sky, there was a female rider on it.

I flew even closer to them. Now I could see her beautiful face, her black hair was fluttering in the wind. She rode very graciously. I attempted to catch up with her but the horse was much faster, also she did not notice me.

I returned on the ground and glanced at the horizon. There was some kind of a building far away. Instantaneously I appeared by the main entrance. It was a wooden house with big glass windows. There were people walking and communicating inside. I realized there was some kind of office. People could not see me as if I was a ghost. I noticed a very beautiful secretary and decided to make love with her. She was able to see me somehow and was positive about my attempt. As soon as I kissed her, I reintegrated with my body.

Astral Projection: Endless Hallway (25)

2006-01-12T12:00:00.000-05:00

As soon as I escaped my body, I felt the Astral Wind carried me away. I saw an endless hallway of red bricks with lots of arches on the right side of it. There was the light flowing through those arches. I could see a beautiful landscape with mountains and trees. Absolute silence was surrounding the whole area. I had a feeling of complete peace and tranquility as I flew through that hallway. There was a sensation as if everything was under water.

Vision: Controlled Thunderbolts

2006-01-11T11:10:00.000-05:00

I was sitting on the stairs by the main entrance to my ex-high school. It was a sunny day. A known person came and sat beside me. I used to see him at my University. He said he wants to give me a present, and it was a calculator. I replied, it is very kind of him, but he already gave me a calculator last year.

He took the calculator out of his handbag anyway. There was some kind of handle connected to it. I suspected it was an electromagnetic field measurement device. I could see the numbers on the calculator screen changing rapidly. I wondered why and looked around.

Far back at the horizon I noticed black clouds gathering and a storm coming up. I invited everyone around me to observe this phenomenon. Soon afterwards, we observed how huge blasts of thunderbolts were coming down on the city and burned it down. I understood it was a weather control example and we started to think about our evacuation.

I was about to move to the underground emergency facilities together with the others but I heard someone calling my name from outside. I ran towards the voice. It kept calling. As I ran closer, I was able to recognize the voice of Kazimieras. I still could not see him because there was some kind of construction obstacles on my way.

Darkness was falling from the sky; the signs of storm coming up started to show off. There was a sensation of terror and evil all over the place. Finally, I found my friend. His face was changed; it looked younger, slimmer as if he was starving for a week or so. We fell into each other arms happy with tears. Then he showed me his hands – they we deformed because of the thunderbolt strike. He told me how that happened. There was also another young woman listening to his story.

He was at a grocery store hiding from the storm with other people when the thunder stroke. All of the people in there were soaked in rain and there were so many of them that they could not avoid touching each other; so when the thunder stroke everybody was shaking in agony because the electrical current was running right through them. It was a perfect human electrical circuit.

When he finished his story we stood under a massive bridge and waited for the storm to calm down.

Astral Projection: Empty Seats (24)

2006-01-10T11:01:00.000-05:00

After the separation happened, I found myself spinning in the middle of my childhood’s room at my grandma’s place. I was spinning in a fashion as if I was facing the center of my spinning circle’s center. The circumference of the circle was about two meters.

The room was dark, but there was a pleasant light flowing from the hallway. I could see prepared meditation seats in my fashion. The seats were allocated in such way that they formed a half circle. There were pillows and the bed sheets on the floor. The pillows were deformed so that they appeared to me as if invisible man were still sitting on them.

I knew in my heart my yoga teacher, his wife and my other yogi friend just meditated in this place, but they were gone somewhere. I felt warm sensations in my mind as if those above-mentioned people were calling me to join them. A moment after that I reintegrated with my physical body.

Vision: Three Bearded Men

2006-01-09T10:01:00.000-05:00

It was a sunny day no clouds whatsoever. The sun was glaring right in to our eyes.
My friend Craig and I were going somewhere in a car on the top of a skyscraper. He was driving I was sitting in the passenger seat at his right.

I turned my head to the right and glanced through the window. There were three colored wax bust statues of three bearded men. They resembled Carl Marx, Engels and Lenin. Those statues were about three meters in height. My ex-classmate Ramunas was sitting on the substructure nearby.

When I turned my head back so I can observe the road again, I found my driver friend nestled to my left shoulder. I had realized there was nobody controlling the car and we were about to go off the roof. I knocked Craig and he managed to stop our car on time.

Astral Projection: Native Street (51)

2006-01-08T11:37:00.000-05:00

I woke up at about 7 o’clock in the morning. I could not get asleep again so I turned on my back and started to practice the Full Body Circuit energy exercise. After some time I became bored and turned around so my body was lying on the belly. I felt I was relaxed and began falling asleep. At the same time, I felt pre-OBE vibrations starting to take over my body. This was surprising to me because it never happened while lying on belly. I relaxed and let it go. After a few moments, I felt I was separating from my body.

It was dark in my eyes and a sound of baby crying fade in. I felt uneasy, but I maintained calmness and ignored any disturbances. I felt my physical body at the same time was breathing through the mouth, but I did not attempt to change anything because I knew any physical tension or movement would cause my projection to fail.

Suddenly I saw a fireball. It was like a shiny ball of lava suspended in the air and changing its form constantly. Initially it was colored but later I could see it only in black & white. When the ball faded out of my view, I could see a room. I found myself hanging at the ceiling of an unknown room. The cry of a baby was still in my ears but I could not see any source of this sound.

I saw the view is going blur so I had sent some energy into my navel center and my view was OK again. I started to navigate through the apartment. It looked old. The floor was worn out. I had an idea of visiting my homeland but the transportation failed. Then I thought it would be great to find a mirror and take look at myself. I found it but I was unable to look at it. Even if I forced my eyes, they would not look that direction.

I had noticed a balcony outside the room and flew straight through the window towards it. When I leaned down I had noticed I was on floor 9 or something. I knew nothing could harm me, but still was anxious to jump down on a street below me. While I was flying down I still could hear the sound of a baby but this time there was the voice of my god mother trying to calm the baby down.

When I was on the ground, I could recognize my native street that I grew up. In addition, I could recognize my parents’ house, but it was changed. It was new, modern, and clean with lots of challenge cups on the windowsills that could be seen from outside.

Then I decided to peek into my neighbors’ house, I jumped inside straight through the window, noticed a baby sleeping and reintegrated with my physical body.

Right after my return, I could hear the most wonderful Indian stringed instrument music playing near the top of my head. It was indeed beautiful and I was about to cry.

Dream: Endless Stream

2006-01-07T11:26:00.000-05:00

I dreamt I was in the washroom in my grandma’s house. I wanted to urinate so badly I could not hold it any more. I could not see a toilet anywhere, so I took a pot and started urinating into it. Its capacity was about 2 liters. The stream going from me was so intense, that I could hardly keep the pot stable. It was filled instantaneously. I poured the contents into the nearby bath carefully and I realized I still wanted to pee. I repeated the procedure once more. No effect. I kept peeing into the pot and flushing down for about 10 times, but even that did not help me. Then I woke up and felt my urinary bladder is going to explode there was so much stuff in it.

Lucid Dream or OBE: Yellow Room (56)

2005-12-31T12:47:00.000-05:00

I became conscious during my dream. I dreamt I was in some kind of a yellow room. As soon as I have realized my lucidity, my vision blurred a little because of my excitement. I tried to maintain calmness in order to remain in my dream and not to awake my body. I could feel my physical body at the same time.

I anxious to try the new OBE technique I learned recently. That involves the power of imagination. I looked around myself in my dream that room I was in and imagined I have already projected there. Interesting thing happened: I lost any awareness of my physical body and my sensory perceptions moved to the projected double. No energy vibrations, falling sensations or any other pre-OBE symptoms followed, but I felt I have already projected.

I was in that small yellow room and saw an electrical outlet on the wall. In many OBE cases I see some kind of a hole or an bject with hole(s) while projecting. In that case, it was an outlet. It works like a transfer point between the two dimensions.

I exited the yellow room and found myself in a hallway. There was a set of windows. I could see the clear blue sky and the townhouses approximately 300 meters away. I kept on navigating further down the hallway and found some closed doors. I sneaked in those rooms one by one. They were empty. Finally, I found somebody lying in bed in one of the rooms. The body was twisted with bed sheets. I took a walk around the bed. There was a woman lying. I could recognize her. She was my ex-classmate. I could hardly see her face because of her hair. I tried to make up her hair but more I tried more I failed. I kissed her and woke up in my body.

Astral Projection: Can't Find Myself (55)

2005-12-26T09:24:00.000-05:00

Yesterday it was Christmas; I drank wine, ate meat, the last thing I expected is to have an OBE after having this kind of burden. Nevertheless, after half an hour spend practicing astral projection techniques in my favorite recliner, I could feel the famous pre-OBE vibrations several times, but I could not develop them and have a proper OBE. Sometimes astral sight would take place, but I would fail this wonderful experience because of my overreaction to it.

I went to bed and I still felt the vibrations coming and going. In the morning, I could finally separate from my body due to complete physical relaxation. After I escaped my body, I could see a close-up of my bed sheets and nothing else for a several minutes. I wanted to position my astral double a little higher so I could see my physical body lying on my bed. Just a few moments after this thought I felt being lifted higher and observed my bed from above. I was surprised when I found my bed empty. I expected to find my body in it. This was just an example of the astral noise, I thought, and continued to fly through the room I was in.

It was still dark outside, but I could see the room clearly. This room was unknown to me but I felt I have been here before, maybe in my past life. I took a few rounds inside this room and reintegrated with my physical body.

Astral Projection: Baby (23)

2005-12-22T09:30:00.000-05:00

After all the pre-OBE energy vibrations ceased I felt escaping my body and found myself hanging at the ceiling of my bedroom. The room was changed: all the furniture was gone, no windows. The opposite room corner was lit even I could not see any sources of light.

In a moment, I could see a baby quietly crawling near that lit room corner. She did not look very healthy to me. She was swollen. I observed the scene from above. Suddenly my consciousness moved into her. I felt myself crawling on the floor in her little body. That was quite an interesting experience. I could feel my little limbs - they were not listening to me, and I could hardly control them, but I was moving forward.

A few moments later, I moved back to my previous observation point at the ceiling and continued to hang suspended still watching her. After that I successfully returned to my body.

Sensory System Divided

2005-12-20T09:44:00.000-05:00

I was lying on my bed one evening, relaxing: palms up, on my back. I could feel my physical body. At the same time, I was observing my nervous system being phenomenally divided into the left and the right sides.

I could say my left side of the body was lying on bed in some kind of a dark room with stairs, but the right part of my body was in a light room with old furniture, and, I think it was in a standing position. I could feel myself being in those two rooms; simultaneously I felt my actual physical body lying on my bed in my room. Each of my eyes was seeing a different room, the same was happening to my ears. My sensory system was divided in half.

This was a very unique experience to me. I could feel being in three places simultaneously.

Real Time Zone OBE: Difficult To Move (54)

2005-12-18T10:55:00.000-05:00

It was early morning. I was lying on my bed and suddenly pre-OBE vibrations caught my body. I could see with my eyes into the Real Time zone, a plane between the physical and the astral worlds. I could see my room where my body was actually lying, but it was enormously changed. I relaxed and applied the Third Eye Gazing technique to trigger my OBE. This time my exit was unusually easy.

After that, I realized I was lying in the same place where my actual physical body is lying, but I was unable to move it. I realized I still was in the Real Time Zone, and my physical body was attracting my astral double as a magnet. I have collected all my will power to make an attempt to jump away from my body. It was not easy. Few attempts went unsuccessfully; I was still in the same place. Then I somehow managed to grab some kind of a handle on the sidewall and extract myself away from my physical body. I was moving extremely slow. Meanwhile I could observe the room: it was a room very similar to my bedroom. I could also notice that there was a reverse mirror reflection of my room, but I could also walk into that reflection as well. My sight was somewhat paralyzed, because both of my eyes were looking into the opposite directions. I have closed one of my eyes, and then I could see something. I have tried to do the same with my other eye.

I spent a few moments analyzing the environment. I needed to force my body movements as if my body was rigid and inflexible. One idea was spinning in my head that I should return to my physical body because it is not recommended to be outside of my body for extended periods of time for the first time (even though this was not my first OBE). I crawled back to my body. It was standing on the edge of my bed. I have plunged into it as if it was some kind of diver’s uniform.

I felt I was in my body again. Then I woke up and realized I had an OBE in my dream. In other words, I had to wake up for two times. The first time I returned from my OBE, but I was still dreaming, then I woke up in reality.

My First Astral Projection (1)

2005-12-16T09:42:00.000-05:00

This spontaneous OBE happened to me due to my rigorous yoga routine about five years ago. I used to practice for four to six hours daily waking up at 3:00 in the morning then plunging myself into advanced Pranayama techniques even though I was not prepared for them.

After one of those early practices, I was lying in my bed in a trance-like state, half-asleep, probably resting in Shavasana. It was still dark outside. Suddenly I became conscious because of the strong vibrations taking all over my body. I was completely unaware what is happening to me. I felt my heart was beating about 300 beats per minute (actually it was my heart chakra as I have realized it later) and I thought it was going to explode. Nevertheless, I knew there is something related to OBE happening so I did let it go.

After a few moments, black pitched darkness surrounded me and scary astral noises commenced. I felt very uneasy, but kept calmness inside and wated patiently. I could see various ornaments approaching me in the darkness, spinning clockwise and I had submerged into them. There was this terrible sound of a massive locomotive speeding through me with his alarms and whistles blowing at full extent. I could also hear various voices and steps walking right beside me. That was very creepy!

In the moment all the noises had stopped. A view of some kind of room faded in. I felt I was flying... through my room. Astral wind was carrying me. I could recognize my room, but it was changed: there was no kitchen table, no carpet, there were some old maple leaves lying on the floor.

I flew right through my kitchen window even if it was closed. I realized I could possibly be in the Astral Plane. This made me very excited. I took control of my flight and headed towards the main entrance. I kept touching things on my way. Everything looked as realistic as on the Physical Plane. The only difference was that if I wanted my hand go through those things it would go, I could also go or fly through walls and change forms of the objects at will.

I saw my hosts sitting outside at the table and drinking some kind of tea. They appeared much younger to me than they are in reality. Now when I was aware of my immortality I wanted to make a rush to my room through all the walls that were on my way. I flew at an enormous speed and a sound of the shattering glass was heard behind me. I looked at my body – I was still uninjured, though I was strangely dressed.

When I made my way to my room, I was surprised to see a young Papua native dancing in there. He resembled me in a way, but was smaller and one eye blind. I observed his dance for some while and suddenly I entered his body. Now I could see myself dancing in his body in front of a mirror. I could also notice that my right eye was useless. That was an interesting experience.

After that, I realized I was lying near or in my physical body but could not control any of my limbs. I made a few unsuccessful attempts to enter my body this made me uneasy. I thought I could never enter my body again and inevitably die! Finally I relaxed, and probably, felt asleep, this helped me to return to my body of flesh.

Failed OBE (53)

2005-12-15T09:11:00.000-05:00

I do not recall what my dream was about, but I remember becoming lucid in that dream. Once I realized my lucidity I performed the Falling Backwards technique to enter the Astral Plane. No sooner than I began falling backwards in my dream, the well-known symptoms of pre-OBE were initiated – my whole body was submerged into vibrations.

After a few moments I became conscious of my physical body that was lying on my right side on my bed. Falling backwards was a little complicated in this situation because it was unnatural. I should have tried falling on my side in this case, but it was hard to trick my mind so I just relaxed and performed the Third Eye Gazing technique to trigger an OBE. I felt my leg muscles twitching, that was not good because it could fail my attempt at any time.

Whole body vibrations continued for a few minutes and I was still unable to separate from my body. Not enough, I felt my saliva collecting in my mouth. That was completely distracting. For some reason I thought if I swallow it my OBE attempt will fail for sure. Possibly, I have programmed myself to fail my Astral Projection thinking that way. Mind becomes very susceptible in the trance state, so as soon as swallowed that saliva the pre-OBE vibrations faded away and I felt completely conscious lying on my bed again.

Sounds of the Chakras

2005-12-14T09:03:00.000-05:00

This happened to me about three years ago. I was meditating in my room in Germany, a very quiet place in woods. Even then, I was using my earplugs to ensure the silence is not disturbed while practicing my routine. Earplugs are very helpful for the beginners.

I was sitting in the semi lotus posture that evening and suddenly I began to hear the sound of a church bell. It was continuous and too much echoes was around it in order to be realistic. I knew there is the church near by and it rings every evening at the certain times for several minutes, but this sound was continuing for about twenty consecutive minutes.

I was trying to disregard that disturbance, but still it was interesting to me what was going on outside. I took off my earplugs and was surprised – there was no sound at all, it was complete silence around me. So I inserted my earplugs again and continued my meditation. About few minutes later, the mystical sound touched my ears again. This time I continued to listen to this beautiful sound and as I concentrated on it was growing louder and louder. Soon I have noticed it is not a church bell at all, that was a sound coming from inside of me.

This continued every time I sat down for my meditation. I kept wondering where it is coming from. I had a different kind of sound coming from my right ear, but I knew it was a buzzing caused by the loud music that I was listening in the discothèque few weeks ago. This was a completely different case and I could not explain it.

Few months later I was reading Paramahamsa Yoganangaji’s writings. He was explaining the sound of chakra’s or astral nadis in that article. I have realized that the sound of church bell was nothing else but the sound of my third, solar plexus chakra. After that, I have discovered my root chakra sound, which sounded like a cricket. Then I heard my heart chakra playing the sound of flute. Sometimes I could notice a very soft sound coming from my second chakra which reminds me a tingling of water while being poured into a metallic plate.

Technological Invention for Effortless Meditation - Holosync

2005-12-13T09:35:00.000-05:00

First, I was introduced to meditation and yoga about 5 years ago. I found it quite difficult to maintain concentration and my mind kept wondering. Nevertheless, by rigorous practice of breathing techniques I was able to quiet my mind for short periods of time.

Two years ago or so I was having a terrible headache, which is still lasting at some degree since then. I was doing a research online looking for the cause and a possible solution to it. I have discovered Binaural Beats and how they work on human brain on one website. There was a list of human brainwave patterns and their effect on body and mind. I found that one which removes headache so I designed a stereo track on Sound Forge by Sonic Foundry.

I listened to that self-made track for about 20 minutes and felt I was in a trancelike state. It was quite extraordinary, because I did not believe anything unless I tested it for myself. After that, I sought online for the similar software, because I knew there was somebody before me was doing the same thing. I found Brainwave Generator, free software with great presets, community and forum. I was experimenting with it for few days in a row, some mystical experiences happened.

I kept looking on the Internet. I found the most promoted program on the Internet – Holosync. I listened to their free demo track, and was amazed how quick it was – my mind started falling to the trancelike state as soon as I put the headphones on. I bought the initial level (they have designed 12 levels or so) for this amazing program and enjoyed the results – effortless meditation.

My friends also had similar experiences. They even reported the first signs of Kundalini awakening as well as other signs of spiritual progress while on the 4th level of this program.

Help Make Blogs More Visible!

2005-12-11T20:53:00.000-05:00

There are by some estimates more than a million weblogs. But most of them get no visibility in search engines. Only a few "A-List" blogs get into the top search engine results for a given topic, while the majority of blogs just don't get noticed. The reason is that the smaller blogs don't have enough links pointing to them. But this posting could solve that. Let's help the smaller blogs get more visibility!
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Astral Projection: Show Off (52)

2005-12-10T20:07:00.000-05:00

Suddenly I became conscious and I felt first symptoms of astral projection happening: my heart chakra was working overtime and my whole energy body was vibrating. Instantly I knew I am going to separate from my physical body in a moment so I have performed yogic third eye gazing technique to fasten the process. This helped a little but was not enough for the separation to happen. Vibrations continued for about next three minutes. I almost became bored and felt my leg muscles twitching. I thought that maybe the latter was the reason stopping me from having an OBE (out of body experience). Finally, I have decided to call my Guru, Babaji. I called His mantra for several times and felt vibrations developing repeatedly stronger and stronger.

All the time my astral sight was active and I saw myself lying on the bed at my grandma’s house. I thought this is for real. Someone was constantly walking behind my point of view. I could hear the steps. This creature was whispering something all the time. It was not a very pleasant experience, especially when everything is so dark and the place itself is associated with ghosts.

Finally, I have decided to relax completely and not to be so attached to the idea of having an OBE. Few moments later, my ears were stuffed with terrible astral noise, and I knew the separation happened. I felt the astral wind was carrying me away from my physical body at the unbelievable speed. I felt I was moving backward and up. On my way, I saw shiny maple leaves fading in the darkness.

Suddenly everything stopped and I felt myself suspended somewhere at the ceiling of the room at my grandma’s house. The light was on. I saw a bed beneath me. The astral wind starter to rotate me again, it was quite a pleasant experience. I looked at the bed once again – the room was huge, and I could notice three people on the bed sleeping in white bedclothes. I witnessed those three people transforming into one huge mature woman.

I wanted to experiment with my voice at this moment so I shouted once. The sound was as if my voice was ten times amplified. I could hear it reverberating and echoing back as if I was shouting through a huge metal tube. One more interesting thing is that this sound after approximately one second was completely cut, muted. I shouted once more – the same effect happened.

I assume the old woman lying on the bed heard my voice and stared at me then concealed herself into a drawer of the wardrobe. After the moment, I noticed my uncle crawling from the same drawer and attempting to attack me. He was furious but funny. I understood he wanted to fight me. I smiled, grabbed him on his few hairs then whirled around for a few times and threw on bed again.

At the same moment, I heard my mother’s voice in the room beside me. I wanted to make her a surprise. I flew through the room’s wall outside the house and observed the room she was in from the outside. There was my father and my sister as well. They were preoccupied with ironing, I assume. I entered the room straight through the window.

My mother asked why I am naked. I looked at myself and noticed I was in my underwear. I said I am not naked because I wear underwear. She replied that she does not see any underwear.

I just wanted to show them few tricks I am capable of doing in the astral plane so I jumped on to the bed and landed on my back on the floor straight through the bed. They all bended down to observe me under the bed [at the moment I am writing this sentence I had a deja-vu]. Faster then that I jumped up through the bed again and sticked myself to the ceiling. I was quite satisfied with myself because they were still looking for me under the bed.

For some reason I closed my imaginary eyes and thought my OBE is over, but after few moments I rediscovered myself at the same room with an afro-american guy in front of me. He talked about the job I have done and gave me a salary: a small box of coal, a liter of water and a liter of vodka.

I closed my imaginary eyes again and found myself back in my physical body.

Trance Induced Experience

2005-12-10T09:55:00.000-05:00

I remember waking up at night and searching for my voice recorder in order to record my last dream. I was dictating it to my device as soon as I found it. I realized I was holding the recorder upside down so I have switched it. I thought that maybe I should redo my recording because of this. However, suddenly I have noticed one extra button on the device. It said “run” on it. Intuitively I knew it was specifically designed for reporters who like to make their interviews while running. It is a very strange option, I thought.

After few moments, I became conscious and realized it was just a trance-induced experience.

Astral Sight

2005-12-10T09:19:00.000-05:00

I was lying on my bed in the morning. It was still dark outside. I realized I could see my room but it was somehow different. The distances between furniture were incorrect. It was also I couldn’t see my nose as I always do.

At that moment I thought I am probably seeing not with my physical eyes, but my astral perception is active. In order to prove that I just opened my eyes very briefly. I could see my actual physical room – it was brighter than I saw with my astral eye. After I closed my eyes I still could see the previous view with my astral eye which gradually vanished as I got more and more awake.

Sapnai Dec 09, 2005

2005-12-09T10:31:00.000-05:00

Sapnai: Kerciaus Beieskant
Mano vaikystes kiemas Raseiniuose. Aplinkui daugiabuciai, sviecia saule, ne vieno zmogaus. As su savo dviraciu mokinuosi vaziuoti ant vieno rato. Tai darau labai sekmingai ir legvai. Po to taip isismaginau, kad pradejau vazineti tik ant vieno rato. Stebejausi kodel man anksciau taip sunkiai pavykdavo.

Nuriedejau i gretima kiema. Pastebejau prie gatves besiburiujant Kerdziaus klasiokus. Su Kerdzium buvau prarades kontakta jau pries kokius 5 metus, todel knietejo suzinoti kur jis yra.

Jo klasioku tarpe atpazinau Deivi, Kruki ir dar kai kuriuos. Jie kaip visada laide savo nemiritngus juokelius. As privaziavau ir pasiteiravau ar jie nezina kur yra Kerdzius. Deivis besisypsodamas atsake, jog viskas ka jis zino yra tai, kad Kerdzius persikrauste i Alytu. Deivio veidas tuomet kai kalbejo su manimi nepazistamai pasikeite, taciau vis dar zinojau, kad jis yra Deivis.

Sapnai: Sukilimas Vilniuje
Atsimenu buvau kazkokioje apleistoje parduotuveje Vilniuje, Gedimino prospekte. Jausmas toks, jog viskas vyksta II pasaulinio karo metais. Vilniuje vyko kazkoks sukilimas. Toje parduotuveje radau plasmasini pistoleta ir nutariau ji pasiimti. Is paziuros atrode veikiantis, todel nutariau isigyti soviniu.

Zinojau, kad soviniu gausiu Akropolyje, todel paemiau troleibusa. Vaziavau stacias - zuikiu. Troleibusas buvo pustustis, stoviniavo zmones. Pagalvojau, jog reiketu issimusti taloneli. Beeidamas to padaryti troleibuso priekyje pastebaju kontroliere, ji tikrino bilietelius. Pazenklinau, atsisedau. Ji praejo pro viena besisypsancia keleive, kuri vaziavo be bilietelio, taciau jos nebaude. Priejo prie manes, paprase talonelio - parodziau. Ji labai atidziai paziurejo, taciau talonelio is mano ranku neeme. Paziurejo dar karta: talonelyje buvo per daug skyliu, ji pastebejo jog jis buvo ismustas pora kartu. As irgi pastebejau, jis buvo ismustas viena karta elektroninio zymeklio, kur matesi data ir koki pora kartu rankiniu zymekliu, taciau as zinojau jog talonelis buvo mustas tik viena karta, nes jis buvo naujas, nors ir labai suglamzytas.

Kontroliere staiga atsilenke nuo manes ir istiesusi dar du bilietelius pasake kazka panasaus i "siusrprizas". Pasake, jog tai kaledu proga. Islipau is troleibuso, nelabai gaudziausi kur esu, vietu nepazinojau.

Sapnai Dec 08, 2005

2005-12-08T08:38:00.000-05:00

Sapnas: Neileido
Naktis. Aplinkui daug zmoniu, visi jie mano gyvenime buvo kazkuom svarbus, susirinke is visu pasaulio vietu. Jie trauke i kazkoki uzdara vakareli. Jis vyko viename bestogiame lentiniame pastate. Labai nustebau, kai Steve man prie duru pasake, jog man negalima i sita vakareli.

Smirinejau aplinkui ta pastata, girdejau kaip visi linksminosi ir triuksmavo. Labai norejau ten patekti, tad ziurejau pro lentu plysius kas ten vyksta. Buvo daugiau zmoniu norinciu ten patekti ir stebinciu per plysius.

Pamaciau savo buvusi darbdavi Kesta. Jis su kazkuo kalbejo. Pastebejes jog sujudinau lenta noredamas labiau preplesti regos lauka, liovesi kalbejes ir susidomejo kas tai galetu buti. Tada pasitraukiau is savo vietos ir nuejau atokiau.

Po akimirkos grizau prie pastato, durys buvo atidaros, prie ju stovejo Kestas su drauge ir kalbejo. Pamates mane labai apsidziauge ir tuojau pat pakviete pasivaisinti. Jo drauge irgi buvo labai vaisinga. Steve sedejo kambario gale ir stebejo.

Ant stalo gulejo ivairiausi sumustiniai. Kestas pasiule paragauti keleta is ju. Po to prie musu prisijunge Steve.

Sapnas: Prabegimas
Begau sportuodamas Raseiniuose Dubysos gatve. Jauciau, jog esu priauges svorio, taciau pats begimas buvo itin lengvas - lyg ant sparnu. Begdamas dariau staigius manevrus idant isvengciau susidurimo su priesais einanciais pesciaisiais.

Sapnai Dec 07, 2005

2005-12-07T10:04:00.000-05:00

Sapnas: Karateka
Klaidziojau savo mokyklos koridoriais basas su karate apranga. Tuo momentu buvo apsiniauke ir saltoka, berods lauke buvo siek tiek sniego. Neprisimenu del ko aplankiau savo mokykla, taciau isejau pro laukines duris ir patraukiau namo.

Prisiminiau jog atvaziavau su masina ir, kad ji laukia stovejmo aikstelej. Apsisukau ir ejau jos pasiimti. Uz nugaros ejo trys merginos ir prunkste is mano uniformos ir siaip bendro ivaizdzio. Jauciau vesia zeme savo padais, vietomis buvo ledas.

Smirinejo daugiau zmoniu aplinkui. As palindau po kazkokiu medziu ir atlikau pora smugiu rankomis ir kojomis. Mokyklos sodelyje tuo pat metu praktikavo Wu-Shu mokiniai. Ju buvo apie trisdesimt. Visi su baltomis Wu-Shu uniformomis, ir dirzais. Praktikavo kazkokia koordinacijos technika ant vienos kojos, bandydami pakirsti priesais stovinti nusisukusi varzova.

Praejes juos pradejau dairytis savo masinos, bet aiksteleje jos nesimate. Paejus toliau atradau dar viena stovejimo aikstele, nors jos tenai neturejo buti. Sutemo. Pastebajau savo transporto priemone beveik uzblokuota kitu gretimais stovinciu masinu. Vos-vos isispraudziau pro priekines dureles, uzvedziau. Garsas buvo toks, kaip, kad masnos kur kazkada turejau, o vaizdas dabartines.

Atsargiai neuzkliudydamas pravaziavau blokuojancias masinas, pajudejau mokyklos kiemo link. Vel tapo giedra, ir, berods, jau buvo pavasaris. Vaziavau atsargiai, nes praeinanciu is tiesu buvo daug. Ieskojau kur paparkuoti masina, nes turejau sugrizti i mokykla ten pasiimti savo rubu.

Wu-shu mokiniai vis dar praktikavo ir demonstravo savo sugebejimus. Vienas su futbolo kamuoliu, mazdaug sesiu metu vaikas rode kamuolio valdymo klase. Po to jie sulipo vienas ant kito padarydami 4-5 zmoniu stulpa, pats aukstutinis laike kamuoli. Po akimikos ju stulpas isiro ir jie minkstai nusoko ant zemes.

Kuri tai laika jie bande pastatyti dar aukstesni zmoniu stulpa. Jiems ejosi sunkiai. Taciau akimirka kai as nusisukau ir vel atsisukau mazdaug devyniu zmoniu stulpas jau virto ant zemes. As pestebejau, jog patys virsutiniai zmones buvo manekenai.

Sapnas: Autobuse
Ilipau i kazkoki trumpu marsrutu autobusa. Ir paprasiau bilieto iki Kauno. Vairuotojas pareiske, jog Kaune nestoja. Anot jo galimybe sustoti yra tik Kulautuvoje arba 25 km uz Kauno. Paprasiau bilieto uz Kauno. Jis vel kazka pradejo aiskinti ir isvengdamas susidurimu su priesiais gatve einanciais paaugliais dare staigius manevrus vairu, bei stabdziais.

Tada jis apibilietavo naujai ilipusius keleivius, o as vis dar stovejau be bilieto. Vel paprasiau bilieto, tada jis paeme kazkoki grazinta/naudota bilieta ir bande ikisti man. Paziurejau, jog bilieto kaina buvo 0.8 cento. Pasakiau jam, kad nustotu mane apgaudinejes ir pareikalavau, kad atspausdintu nauja. Dar pastebejau, kad jei ilips kontroliere as busiu kaltas.

Tada jis paeme is manes bilieta, parase zaliu plamasteriu pliusa, bei naujus skaicius, as jam padaviau $2 CAD, jis man graza, ir nuejau atsisesti i viena is ten stovejusiu odiniu foteliu palei langa.

Maciau, jog autobuse vaziuoja daug mano klasioku, taciau vien tik merginos. Pasisveikinau linkteledamas Erikai. Tada prie manes koketiskai prisedo nepazistama blondine, ir mes flirtavome likusi kelia.

Sapnai Dec 06, 2005

2005-12-06T10:02:00.000-05:00

Sapnas: Naujame Darbe
Buvau kazkokiame ofise. Sprendziant is to, kad aplink sukosi ivairiatauciai mano manymu tai buvo kazkur Toronte.

Kalbejausi pasiremes i stala su nepazistama juodaode. Ji kazka pasakojo apie mano nauja darba. Pati valge barscius is stiklines. Vienas vyras, berods sefas pasiteiravo jos is kur tie barsciai ir siek tiek pyktelejo, kad jam neteko paragauti.

Po to mes paememe parkerius, pamirkeme i rasala vis dar kalbedamiesi ir pradejome rasyti ant vieno is juodrasciu. As parasiau man nepazistama zodi, jis atsispaude neryskiai, neiskaitomai, po to ji, jau su savo parkeriu prirase kazka prie to zodzio pradzios, tada as is viso nesusigaudziau kas cia vyksta.

Veliau ji man parode mano stala. Tai buvo tuscias, siek tiek dulketas stalas tame paciame erdviame kambaryje kaip ir pries tai matytos merginos. Siek tiek dulkiu matesi ant jo. Pradejau atidarineti stalcius ir narsyti ju turinius. Ten gulejo ivairiausiu popieriu su dideliais numeriais, kazkokiu kaseciu.

Prie manes priejo ta pati moteris grizusi is vietinio susirinkimo, pradejo kalbeti man nesuprantama kalba, be to girdejau viska labai neaiskiai. Suvokiau, jog esu uzsidejes ausines ir klausausi mp3 muzikos. Nusiemiau ausines, bet tai nepadejo. Tada pasilenkiau arciau jos - lygtai pradejau suprasti ka ji bando pasakyti. Taciau vel pamaciau, kad ant mano ausu yra ausines. Dar karta nusiemiau jas. Pro sali praejo dar viena bendradarbe ir nusisypsojo.

Pastebejimai Dec 05, 2005

2005-12-05T09:54:00.000-05:00

Pastebejimai: Delnais Aukstyn
Pries miega praktikavau astralines praktikas, si karta atsiguliau delnais aukstyn, o ne zemyn kaip jau iprasta, nors labai patogu nebuvo. Pastebejau, jog i transa iejau greiciau ir jis buvo gilesnis tokioje padety.

Po to praktikavau nauja technika, Full Energy Body Bounce taciau jau virs savo kuno ribu, o ne savo kuno riibose. Efektas buvo stulbinantis, jau po keliu minuciu pajutau kazka panasaus i savo energetinio kuno judejima, o pabaigdamas praktikas staiga ikvepiau, uzlaikiau ora, pasiraziau, ir tas issauke netiketas energetines vibracijas lyg pries iseinant i astrala. Tai buvo pirmas kartas kai tas gavosi neuzmigus. Deja nesugebejau islaikyti vibraciju spartos ir jos atslugo.

Sapnai Dec 05, 2005

2005-12-05T09:38:00.000-05:00

Sapnai: Nuotrupos
Sia nakti patingejau uzrasyti savo sapnus, tad to rezultate atsimenu tik ju nuotrupas. Pirmasis sapnas buvo apie upe. As sedejau su sese prie placios upes. Joje braide Marius, o Vitalijus slapinosi prie medzio ir viesiems demonstravo savo organa.

Kitas sapnas buvo virtuveje Netoniuose, mano pussesere Aristida savo kunu padare tilteli pilvu zemyn, o mes su kitais pusbroliais vaiksciojome po ja. Na, jos ugis buvo atatinkamas.

Sapnai Dec 04, 2005

2005-12-04T13:31:00.000-05:00

Sapnas: Slykstyne
Tai buvo vienas is slyksciausiu kada nors mano sapnuotu sapnu. Niekam nepatarciau jo sapnuoti vienam namuose.

Veiksmas vyko nakti kazkokioje poilsiavieteje. Sedejau su savo klasiokais prie keturkampo plataus stalo. Virs jo spingsejo labai paprastas sviestuvas, ir apsviete tik stala ir prie jo sedinciu zmoniu veidus. Mes apie kazka labai intensyviai diskutavome.

Uzsinorejau i tualeta tad pakilau nuo stalo ir paemes viena is triju stovejusiu tualetiniu popieriaus rulonu kryptingai patraukiau. Ejau kazkokiu tamsiu koridoriumi, vis dar tolumoje matesi ir girdejosi mano draugai. Niekada nebuvau toje aplinkoje, taciau jauciau, jog ji man pazistama.

Zinojau, jog cia yra du tualetai: vienas didelis, su daug perskyrimu, ir kitas - vienute. Nutariau eiti i vienute, kadangi norejau ramiai pasedeti. Jis buvo siek tiek toliau einant koridoriumi i kaire.

Uzlipau laiptais. Atidariau duris, nusimoviau kelnes, pamaciau, jog visas tualetas tapo permatomas. Maciau savo draugus vienoje puseje, o kitoje puseje Rutkausku nama Netoniuose. Lauke buvo tamsi naktis. Pazvelges zemyn dar pastebejau, jog cia labai nesterilu ir nemazai pridergta tad issiterliojau savo kelnes. Pasislykstejau. Atidariau langa, nes patalpa mazejo akyse ir joje tilpti buvo vis sunkiau. Maniau atliksiu savo reikalus tiesiai pro langa, bet staiga pamaciau kaip i mano lytini organa per slapimtaki bando patekti kazkoks kirminas. Emiau ji traukti. Jis lindo atgal gana nenoriai. Tai buvo zalios spalvos gyvis su kojomis, mazdaug 5 cm dydzio. Trenkiau ji lauk. Kitas toks pat kirminas siurbesi man i slauni, ir jau buvo beilendas, bet sugebejau ji is ten isprasyti. Fuiiii!

Sapnai Dec 03, 2005

2005-12-03T10:18:00.000-05:00

Sapnas: Virtuvej
Sapnavau jog esu uzrakintas kazkokiame bute. Jo isplanavimas atrode kaip iprasto lietuvisko buto. Stovejau virtuveje, saldytuvas buvo atdaras, ir jo dureles uzstojo praejima todel noredamas pereiti as laipiojau per dureliu virsu. Jame buvo visokiausiu vaisiu. As ketinau pasidaryti vaisiu su grietine. Taip pat atkreipiau demesi i sudygusius sparagus maiselyje padetus virsutineje saldytuvo lentynoje. Sapne prisiminiau, kad juos matau jau ne pirma karta.

Tuo pat metu galvoje mintimis kalbejau su savo mokytoju Steve. Jo klausiau: "kodel zmogus turi tureti partneri, kad taptu tobulas?". Jis atsake, jog zmogus su partneriu yra pirmoje vietoje, o visa kita tik antra ir trecia. Labai nusistebejau kodel jis taip kalba juk pats irgi yra be partnerio.

Sapnas: Lovoje
Veiksmas vyko Raseiniuose, namuose. Didysis kambarys buvo be pertvaros. Jame dvi dvigules lovos. Vienoje mano klasiokes Aiva ir Giedre. Kitoje as ir tevukas. Visi buvome susisupe i savo antklodes ir guledami skaldeme juokelius. Tevukas miegojo nusisukes i siena. Prismenu kaip Aiva kazka pasnibzdejo draugei i ausi paskui manes paklause ar vis dar gyvenu su tevais. As atsakiau: "Jo, ne tik gyvenu, bet dar ir miegam vienoj lovoj". Negalejau tverti juokais. Jos vel kazka pradejo snibzdetis tarpusavyje. As pasnairavau i tevuka. Tas su sypsena veide apsisuko ant kito sono, vis dar uzsimerkes ir paklause manes ar jos girdejo ka as pasakiau.

Sapnas: Meile Airijoj
Veiksmas vyko Airijoj kazkokiame erdviame ofise. Didelis kambarys buvo padalintas i daugeli daliu pertvaromis. Pro placius langus matesi pastatai bei giedras dangus. Sedejau su nepazistama lietuvaite, beje ji Airijoj buvo nelegaliai.

Mudviem nebuvo paslaptis ko mes cia susirinkome tad viskas nedelsiant ir prasidejo. Be jokiu izangu ji atsege man kelnes ir pradejo daryti blowjob. Viskas buvo labai tikroviska ir as akimirksniu pasijutau devintam danguje. Ji jau neistverusi norejo sesti, bet as ja sustabdziau ir paprasiau uzdeti prezervatyva. Nezinau is kur ji tai istrauke, bet jis atrode nemazas, taciau gerai prigludo. Isbandeme dauguma man zinomu pozu. Tai truko apie 30 min.

Staiga laiptineje pasigirdo lyg kas butu nuverte eile lentu. Mes teseme toliau tik ji ne is sio ne is to man pasake, jog ja suseke mokykloje. Dar pridejo, kad ji turi apie dvi dienas kol ja pagaus.

Sapnai Dec 02, 2005

2005-12-02T10:42:00.000-05:00

Sapnas: Kortos ir Aistra
Zaidziau su nepazistama mergina kortomis. Pats gulejau ant lovos, ji zemiau uz mane ant grindu. Jos kuna denge ne per daugiausia rubu, gal del to jog zaideme is nusirenginejimo. Mergina turejo puiku kuna ir buvo gerame upe.

Po keliu akimirku uzsitraukiau ja i pas save i lova ir prasidejo sunkiai aprasomi ir realiame gyvenime igyvendinami dalykai: musu kunu formos ir dydziai kito pagal musu nora. Mes mylejomes ilgai. Buvo be galo malonu.

Sapnas: Snaiperiai
Sis sapnas, tikriausiai, buvo atogarsis filmo, kuri maciau vakar. As su draugu lindejau krumuose prie medzio - mes laukeme palankios progos kai galesime pulti nieko neitariancius gangsterius sedincius prie stalo ir ciulpiancius savo cigarus.

Laukeme ilgai, ir mano draugas nutare nubegti namo atsinesti kazkokios sautuvo sudedamosios dalies. Jis tai padare be perspejimo, todel nesugebejau jam uzbegti uz akiu ir musu sleptuve jau nebebuvo paslaptis blogieciams. Jie mus pastebejo. Maciau kaip jie uztaisineja mazdaug amziaus senumo ginkla. Maciau tai tarsi stoveciau visai prie pat ju. Pastebejau jog ju sautuve yra istrigusi kulka ir tai dare ju situacija keblia. Jie keikesi ir kazka man sauke vis dar bandydami isimti uzstrigusia kulka.

Sapnas: Ikaitai
Veiksmas vyko Netoniu kaime, mociutes name. Buvau paemes ikaitais savo pusbroli Dainiu ir pussesere Aida. Jie buvo dar labai mazi. Mes buvome miegamajame, o ju susijaudine tevai gretimame kambaryje. Girdejau savo tetos ukciojima ir verksma - ji taip pat atrode gerokai jaunesne.

Neprisimenu kokios buvo mano salygos ir del ko as visa tai dariau. Cia priejo kitas pusbrolis Raimondas ir pradejo mane itikineti, kad mums nieko neiseis. As supratau padeties bereiksmiskuma. Maciau kaip uz duru stovi mano teta ir stebi kas vyksta su jos pagrobtais vaikais.

Akimirksniu ji isiverze i kambari ir griebe savo dukra uz koju is lovytes. Isspruko taip pat greitai kaip ir buvo isiverzusi. Besiverzdama pro duris gerokai trinktelejo Aidos galvele i duru stakta. As viska stebjau ir nesipriesinau.

Po keliu minuciu as paskelbiau paliaubas ir ejau i gretima kambari atsiprasyti uz pagrobima. Pusbrolis Raimondas stovejo salia, abu devejome kostiumus.

Sapnai Dec 01, 2005

2005-12-01T09:29:00.000-05:00

Sapnas: Sokio Pamokos
Vyko sokio pamokos, taciau mano mokytojai buvo tie patys pas kuriuos einu praktikuoti karate. Veiksmas virtuvej, name, kur praleidau savo vaikyste, Netoniuose. Buvo pilna mano klasioku ir paralelines klases klasiokiu.

Man buvo salta, ta proga pasiemiau pirma pasitaikiusia striuke, nors ji nebuvo mano. Vienas is mokytoju, Nikolaj, demonstravo naujo sokio zingsnelius. Tai buvo kazkas panasaus i House ir Swing, mano supratimu. Atrode gan paprastai, su kazkokiais pristatymais, bet realybej sunkiai igyvendinamas sokis norint sokti nesupynus koju.

Staiga priejo mano vyriausiasis mokytojas ir pareiske jog as nesoksiu, o siurbsiu [dulkes]. As supratau jog tai isbandymas, nes buvau naujokas, todel sutikau. Bet neuzilgo uzsilipau ant taburetes ir bandziau atkartoti sokio judesius. Pazvelgiau zemyn, taburete svyravo ant dvieju koju, po to ant kitu dvieju - priklausomai ant kurios puses pernesdavau savo svori. Dar pastebaju, kad deviu kazkokias aukstapades sliures ir jos smukcioja. Tas dare mano soki sudetingu.

Nikolajus pastebejo mano pastangas ir priejo padeti. Jis pasilenke prie mano koju ir pradejo kilnoti mano pedas kaip as tureciau sokti. Pasake, jog man reikia "sulyginti pirstus".

Po keliu mano judesiu jis apsigreze i mane nugara ir eme demonstruoti. Jis soko isties nuostabiai, tad as nusokau nuo taburetes ir emiau sekti jo pavyzdziu. Jis padare viena labai staigu suoliuka ir as susijuokiau.

Po keliu minuciu sokiai baigesi ir as atidaviau pasiskolinta striuke klasiokei Rutai. Padejau ja uzsivilkti ir prisiminiau, jog turiu grazinti treninga taip pat. Tad uzvilkau taji treninga tiesiai jai ant striukes.

Sapnas: Biustas
Sapnavau cementini ar tai gisini plikos moters biusta. Jis daugiausiai buvo maziau ar daugiau pilkos spalvos su kai kuriais atspalviais. Matesi, jog jis buvo kazkur nukrites ar tai suduzes i gabalelius ir vel sulipintas. Buvo pastebimi metaliniai sutvirtinimai, kurie laike skulpturos sukes kartu.

Astralinis Potyris Dec 01, 2005

2005-12-01T08:53:00.000-05:00

Astralinis Potyris: Nepavykes Isejimas
Kaip visada pries uzmigdamas praktikavau savo rutina astraliniam isejimui. Buvau gerai atispakaidaves, bet nepakankamai, kad galeciau iseiti iskuno. Jauciau kaip transo busena generavo ivairiausius "filmus" mano galvoje, taciau tik stebajau juos ir grimzdau dar giliau.

Matyt trumpai imiges, nes kai samone atbudo jauciau pirmuosius isejimo pozymius - energetinio kuno vibracija. Labai apsidziaugiau, nes isejimu vakarais is ties ne daug turejau. Taigi pradejau skatinti sirdies cakra koncentruodamas i ja. Nors iki tol savo fizinio kuna buvau pamirses, pajutau kaip traukosi koju raumenys. Supratau, kad isejimas bus negalimas, jei raumenys taip ir toliau traukysis. Pamazu vibracijos nuslugo ir pamazu pradejau jausti savo kuna - jis buvo itemptas kaip styga. Be to gulejau persisukes ant nugaros, o kojos sonu.

Stebejausi kaip kunas galejo taip isitempti, nes as jau buvau beveik ore ir savo kuno nejauciau.

Sapnai Nov 30, 2005

2005-11-30T09:02:00.000-05:00

Sapnas: Isivaizduojamas Irasas
Prisimenu: pabudau po sapno, ir, paprastai, is karto ji uzrasau i diktofona. Taciau ta siki is karto patingejau uzrasyt ir pagalvojau, kad prisiminsiu. Jau vel uzmiges sapnavau, kad irasineju ta sapna ir atsipalaidavau isitikines, kad ji irasiau.

Po kiek laiko suvokiau, kad mano irasas tebuvo sapnas.

Sapnas: Miegaliai
Veiksmas vyko po kazkokio pasilinksminimo. Buvau tamsioje patalpoje, kur miegojo zmones. Tai buvo mano klasiokai, grupiokai ir siaip pazistamas ar matytas jaunimas. Jie miegojo susisupe i margus miegmaisius ir miegojo visur kur papuole: ant stalu, grindu, praejimu, palangiu, neskaitant lovu ir kedziu. Reikejo atsargiai zengti idant neuzlipti kam nors ant ausu. Sugalvojau neiti i tualeta, bet ir ten miegojo mano grupiokas Audrius. Tuo metu kai as atidariau duris uzsidege sviesa ir jis atsibudes pasikele.

Sapnas: Netikra Anketa
Sapnavau apie 20 metu merginos anketa pazintys.lt. Perskaites informacija supratau, kad si anketa netikra. Be to spalvos buvo ryskiai melynos. Kai supratau, kad anketa netikra. Melynos spalvos dingo.

Sapnas: Lenktynes su Lagaminais
Buvome tusciame kambaryje tryse: as, mano sese ir jos drauge. Berods ruosemes kelionei, nes i kambari isiverze nepazistamas vyras su geltonu ir juodu lagaminais ir pakrates juos kreipesi i merginas: "Ladies, are we ready, I hope they are not too heavy?". Po to jis dingo.

Jos ciupo uz lagaminu ir puole prie duru, kur buvo liftas tiesiai is kambario. Paspaude iskvietimo mygtuka ir liftas nedelsiant atsidare. Jos zuguzejo i vidu - del dideliu kroviniu treciam zmogui vietos neliko, todel man teko leistis laiptais.

Pakeliui zemys as sugalvojau su jomis palenktyniauti. Girdejau kaip leidziasi ju liftas ir jauciau jog jos bus pirmesnes. Be to laiptine atrode per siaura.

Leidziantis kokiu treciu aukstu zemiau pastebejau klaida laiptines isplanavime - laiptai ejo aplinkui be jokiu aiksteliu. Be to grindys tapo stiklinemis, kaip ir patys laiptai. O vienoje vietoje stiklas buvo nepritvirtintas ir issikises - buvo lengvai galima susizeisti.

Isgirdau triuksmus apacioje ir supratau, kad laiptine yra remontuojama, matesi stiklintojai, kuriems nuolat trukde dirbti laiptine praeinantys zmones. Vienas is ju buvo arabu kilmes, kuris nuolat atsiprasinejo del sutrukdymo, po to praejo aziete moteris. Po to dar kazkas.

Supratau, jog noredamas pro cia praeiti turesiu ilgai laukti, tad nusprendizau ieskoti atsarginio isejimo.

Sapnas: Saujos Plauku
Stovejau kazkokioje virtuveje prie saldytuvo, kazkas ten buvo be manes, nes prisimenu jog kalbejomes. Staiga perbraukiau sau per galva ir pastebejau rankoje likusius plaukus. Plaukai buvo mazdaug 1.5 cm ilgio. Tada paemiau gera kuoksta ir pestelejau. Nemazai plauku pasiliko mano saujoje. Padejau juos graziai ant zemes. Tada procedura pakartojau dar ir dar kol ant galvos liko tik tvirtai besilaikantys plaukai. Pasilenkiau prie grindu ir rankomis suslaviau savo israutus plaukus.

Astralinis Potyris Nov 29, 2005

2005-11-29T21:42:00.000-05:00

Astralinis Potyris: Akute
Buvo dienos vidurys, jauciausi pavarges, todel dribau i greta esancia lova ant pilvo ir pradejau 2:1 kvepavima, kuris simuoliuoja miego rezimo kvepavima. Stengiausi neuzmigti, o tiesiog laviravau ant uzmigimo ribos. Jauciau traso busena artejant.

Galbut buvau uzsnudes keliom akimirkom, bet tuo pat metu buvau samoningas ir stebjau sekanti vaizdeli: zinojau, jog mano akys uzmerktos, bet as galejau matyti. Maciau savo ranka, bet zinojau, kad is tos pozicijos jos matyti negalejau.

Tuo pat metu ivyko sunkiai aprasomas dalykas - atrode, jog mano akiu obuoliai sukasi akiduobese, nes vaizdas buvo kaip tik toks. Tiesa, vaizdas buvo toks lyg mano regos aparatas buvo ne is dvieju akiu, o vienos, bet vaizdas vis dar buvo stereo.

Mazdaug suvokiau ka reiskia eilutes is Biblijos: "Kai tavo akis tampa viena - tavo kunas prisipildo Sviesos". Galima butu paaiskinti, kodel akli zmones patyre pomirtinius isgyvenimus pradeda matyti, nes mes matome ne vien savo fizinemis akimis - tada isijungia astralinis regos aparatas.

Po to viska maciau tarsi per vamzdeli arba per skylute: labai mazas kalnelis ir ant jo auga trumpi plaukai. Visa laika buvau samoningas ir stebajau kas bus toliau. Deja isgirdau mane kvieciant ir viskas baigesi.

Sapnai Nov 29, 2005

2005-11-29T09:40:00.000-05:00

Sapnas: Is Paukscio Skrydzio
Prisimenu kaip su savo kaimynu Marium nutarem paskraidyti virs Raseiniu. Jie atsieit sedejo malunsparnyje, bet nei garso nei jo propeleriu nesimate, tik zinojau, kad jau skrendame. As buvau prisirises mazdaug 0.5 cm skersmens sniuru o jo galas buvo uzsuktas izoliacija, ir tai man kele nerima, nes jis galejo atsiristi bet kuriuo momentu. As laikiau susukta sniura rankoj, kad laikytis kuo arciau malunsparnio.

Jau buvome pakile i mazdaug 100 metru auksti ir sukome ratus virs miesto. Pamaciau savo nama ir paprasiau draugo, kad apsuktume kelis ratus. Na jis suko ir suko, man jau emesi suktis galva, bet vaizdas buvo geras ir tikslus tad kentejau.

Keista buvo tai, kad visi stogai buvo pauksciu apdergti. Kita akimirka isvydau kaip musu suo Dabis uzlipes ant stogo eme slysti. Nelabai supratau kaip jis ten atsirado ir apskritai ka jis ten veikia. Zinojau, kad jis buvo dinges, ir mes jo niekur negalejome rasti.

Paklausiau Mariaus gal jau galetume leistis, taciau po neigiamo jo galvos pakratymo supratau, kad dar teks paskraidyti. Tada atsargiai isleidau visa virve laikiuisia mane per visa jos ilgi ir atsiputes dairiausi i salis. Vaizdas ir jausmas is tikro buvo realistiskas ir nuostabus.

Po keliu akimirku mes nusileidome mano kieme, bet vaizdas transformavosi is mano kiemo i kiema Netoniu kaime. Cia pribego Mariaus suo ir pradejo meilintis. Paglosciau jam paausi, po to siaip kelis kart per nugara ir jis neatlaikes malonumo eme slapintis. Srove buvo gan stipri todel pakeliau savo kojas, kad nesudrekciau...

Veliau keliausi kazkokia valtimi. Pamenu, jog joje buvo nepazistama aziete moteris.

Sapnas: Pomidorai Mokykloj
Veiksmas vyko koridoriuj prie tuometinio rusu kalbos kabineto. As su savo klasiokais nesiau stala, ant kurio buvo isdestyri pomidorai kurie augo tiesiog ant stalo. Staiga priejo Terry, mano Karate treniruociu bendras, ir pradejo aiskinti kaip reikia atrinkineti pomidorus. Jis devejo smokingas ir kalbejo gana uztikrintai, todel mums kilo mazai abejoniu del jo veiksmu. Jis isrinko visus pomidorus kurie buvo zalsvi, pusiau prinoke, ir atidejo juos kaip gerus, visus kitus, bei pomidoru krumus mete lauk.

Mes atneseme stala i kabineta kur buvo beprasidedanti pamoka. Joje buvo pilna ivairaus amziaus vaiku. Atpazinti galejau tik viena uz mane 2 mwtais jaunesnia mergina. Tada mes pradajome perstatineti suolus. Pastebejau, kaip vienas is mano draugu paeme kede net nepastebejes, kad ant jos sedi vaikas ir perdave ja kartu su vaiku kazkur uz mano nugaros. Tai dare ne bet kaip, o tai, kad vaikas kybojo prilipes prie kedes zemyn galva. As atsargiai prilaikiau ji, kad netycia neiskristu.

Sapnai Nov 28, 2005

2005-11-28T12:28:00.000-05:00

Sapnas: Pabegimas
Buvo naktis, berods viduranziu laikas. As stebejau viska kaip filma is aukstai pakibes virs kazkokios pilies. Aplinkui sviete zibaliniai zibintai. Taip pat sarvuoti zmones nesiojo fakelus. Is kazkur zinojau, kad toje pilyje gyvena princese, kuria jie saugo, taip pat zinojau, kad kazkas nori jam pakenkti.

Vos tik pagalvojes, kad butu idomu tame “filme” suvaidinti pajutau kaip leidziuosi is ankstesnes savo stebejimo vietos ir begu nuo tu riteriu, laidanciu streles is savo arbaletu. Netrukus pliukstelejau i vandens kanala, kuris veike kaip apsauga piliai ir supo ja aplinkui. Pajutau kaip kazkas mane sukando visame kune, bet neturejau laiko ziureti, nes turejau perplaukti kanala. Perplaukes puoliau valytis savo kuna ir pastebjau, kad buvau aplipes mazais zaliais kirmeliukais. Nusipurciau ir begau toliau.

Pribegau kazkoki miska, pute gan stiprus vejas, vis da buvo tamsu. Pastebjau viename dideliame medyje esant busta ar kazka panasaus. Uzlipau, ten miegojo zmogus. Pacioje medzio virsuneje buvo dar vienas “butas”, bet ten zmones nemiegojo del per stipraus vejo. Niekas manes negirdejo. As lipau kopeciomis ir girdejau kaip vienoje is lovu kazkas mylejosi arba masturbavosi. Kitas zmogus miegojo ramiai. Berods jie mane pastebejo ir pradejo vytis.

Atsiradau Raseiniuose visas slapias ir pusiau nuogas, pro sali vaziavo masina. Ten buvusios moterys mane pastebejo, as uzsokau uz medzio. Ju veidai buvo pilni uzuojautos.

Sapnas: Uzuolaida
Vyko kazkoks pasilinksminimas Kaune pas pusbroli Raimonda. As dauguma laiko praleidau ziuredamas pro langa lovoj. Tada mama apibare mane kad taip sunkiai keliuosi is lovos. Be to reikejo pataisyti sijona kriksto mamai. Vakarejo, visas vaizdas buvo rausvas del besileidziancios saules. As pastebejau gretima daugiabuti 9 aukstu nama. Buvo keista tai, kad ant langu is lauko puses buvo uzdengta viena didele uzuolaida per 2 – 7 aukstus.

Tada priejo prie manes su kazkokia blondine sokes Raimondas ir isputes ora is dideliu zandu paklause ar su manim viskas tvarkoj...

Toliau atsimenu, kad diktavau savo sapna kazkokiai moteriai.

Sapnas: Tinklinis
To sapno gerai nepamenu, bet is uzraso galiu spresti, kad tai buvo sapnas apie tinklini, su labai specifinem taisyklem: reikejo isminuoti kazkokias minas, visas ziadimas buvo labai itemtas. Buvo labai daug zmoniu.

Sapnas: CD
Atejau i kazkokia pogrindine compaktiniu disku parduotuve. Juodaodis pardavejas, apie 16 metu amziaus nelabai kreipe i mane demesi nes jis stovejo ant galvos. Kai priejau pasisveikino ir padave CD kuri norejau pirkti. Berods tai buvo vienas is Kid Koala albumu. As ieskojau kokio grotuvo kur geleciau ji pragroti, bet nerades ejau is parduotuves. Apsisukes paklausiau ar as uz ji uzmokejau. Pardavejas linktelejo galva, ir as apsigrezes paziurejau i jo kaina. Ten buvo uzrasyta $60. Labai brangus – pagalvojau, istraukiau $20 ir palikau ant prekystalio.

Sapnas: Nukentejes Augalas
Vaziavau autobusu su savo buvusiais klasiokais: Egidijum, Eriku, Marium ir dar kai kuom. Be musu buvo dar daugiau zmoniu autobuso gale. Mes kaip visada skaldeme juokelius ir zvengem. Uz vairuotojo nugaros stovejo kazkoks augalas, berods vairuotojo numyletinis. Egidijus issitrauke peili ir pradejo raizyti bei pjaustyti jo lapus. As perspejau Egi, kad tai gali nesulaukti pritarimo is vairuotojo puses. Vairuotojas, aisku isgirdo, nes mes buvom visai salia jo. Jis staigiai atsisuko, ir negalejo patiketi savo akimis. Atrode rimtai sunerimo. Jis sustabde autobusa ir pradejo mus barti. Egis i viska reagavo ramiai ir isrove augala. Vairuotojas eme grasinti paskusias musu mokymo istaigai. Paklause kur mes mokinames, ir as be jokiu skrupulu atsakiau: “KTU Elektronika”. Galvojau sulauksiu nepritarimo is savo bendru, bet nieko. Tada vairuotojas isvare visus keleivius lauk ir pats isejo paskusti mus.

Atstumas iki miesto buvo didelis, todel ejom pesti per visokias pelkes, kiemus, dumblynus. Sirdy jauciau, kad padarem kazka tai baisaus – tolygaus zmogzudystei, todel eidami vietomis slapstemes.

Pagaliau priejom Raseinius, ir vienas is musu draugu pravarde Muse pasiule uzeiti pas ji. Namuose buvo jo brolis labai panasus i aktoriu Barry Pepper. Jo sukuosena buvo eziuku, viena puse dazyta zilai, kita sviesiai melynai. Jis pasakojo kazkokius savo nuotykius. Tada grizo Muses sesuo, prisimenu tik tiek, kad jos akys buvo labai zydros.

Sapnas: Pazastiplaukiai
Uzdegiau degtuka ir pagalvojau ka cia padeginti. Tada pagalvojau, kad mano pazasty yra siek tiek plauku ir nutariau juos pasvilinti. Buvau uzsivilkes balta maike, todel ji man trukde. Pabandziau padeginti ikises degtuka per rankove, bet napavyko, nes degtukas sudege. Nusivilkau. Usidegiau kita degtuka, ugnis griebe gerai pajutau jog apsideginau oda ir liko zaizda.

Sapnai Nov 27, 2005

2005-11-27T11:58:00.000-05:00

Sapnas: Kerstas
Vaziavau dviraciu misko keliuku, ausksicau manes ejo kazkoks labai antipatiskas medziotojas, ir, nezinau kodel, bet as jo labai nekenciau. Dar jis man kazka parode kas mane isiutino. Paivijau ji savo dviraciu mindamas i kalna, sudaviau jam per peti. Jis atsisuko ir atstate sautuva i mane...

Vaziavau masina labai greitai viduramziu laikais, kelias nelygus, kazkokia suo, kate matesi. Zinojau, kad kazka tai pazeidziau, nes atsiduriau policijos nuovadoje. Taciau man zut but reikejo kazkur suspeti, todel stengiausi is ten kuo greiciau istrukti, teko prasmukti pro 2as duris, bet lekiant pro trecias man pastojo kelia policijos virsininkas ir jo padejejas. Dar prisimenu, kad sprukdamas tempiau su savimi kazkoki juoda maisa, visaip ji trankiau, berods jame buvo kazkas panasaus i lavona.. Labai veiksmo pilnas sapnas...

Sapnas: Skalbeja
Dalyvavau paskaitoje apie rubu skalbima. Skaitove buvo apie 30 metu sviesiaplauke moteris labai gerai ismananti savo reikala. Salia matesi ir dirbo didziule pramonine skalbimo masina. Moteris kazka tai labai intensyviai mums aiskino ir deste bet braize ant lentos kaip viskas veikia. Buvo labai didele pagyrune, nes aiskino visiems kaip visa ta dalyka studijavo universitete.

Sapnas: Baseinas
Buvau kazkokioje sventeje ant 2 aukstu pastato stogo. Zemai matesi baseinas, berods buvo ziema, bet vanduo buvo siltas, rudas ir neuzsales. Zmones kalbejo kaip jie visi eis issimaudyti. Gintas, atrode jis kazkoks susitraukes, soko nuo to stogo tiesiai i baseina nenusirenges kostiumo. Dugno nesimate, be to jis nera gana giliai – pagalvojau, kad cia labai paprasta nusisukti spranda. Iskilo nusivale veida ir pasigyre. Po to pamaciau kaip per baseina perplauke milziniskas ungurys, berods 5 metru ilgio. Salia jo plauke jo vaikas. Kazkas mete pagali ir jis spruko i kranta...

Toliau jau veiksmas vyksta tame pastate. As sedziu ant tuliko, bet ten jokio privatumo – viskas atvira. Pastebejau jog kiti zmones irgi laikia savo eiles ir visi ziuri i mane. As paziurejau zemyn – kojos nesiekia zemes ir po pedom metosi kazkokie plytgaliai. Paskubejau nusisluostyti, bet dariau tai kitaip nei visada, nes mane stebejo apie 10 ivairiatauciu zmoniu...

Po to nuejau i persirengimo kabina ir nutariau issimaudyti tame baseine, nes man tas vakarelis jau ejo per gerkle. Kai isejau laukan nuogas tvyrojo rukas o baseino dydis buvo toks kaip geros upes...

Sapnas: Kaimynas
Stovejau savo miegamajame prie didelio veidrodzio ir tytinejau savo veida. Veidas buvo siek tiek kitoks – jaunesnis, gal 16 metu, staiga priaugo tiek plauku, kad vos galejau matyti save veidrodyje. Isgirdau jog atejo sveciu, apsidairiau ir pastebejau, jog as nuogas. Suradau triusikus i bandziau i juos isokti. Pavyko gal is kokio 4 o karto. Mane aplanke vaikystes draugas, kaimynas Marius. Pasidomejau kaip jam sekas. Jis buvo geroj nuotaikoj ir veiksmas is karto persikele pas ji i garaza. Ten jis parode savo naujausia kurini – sautuveli padaryta is skalbiniu segtuku. Jis saude degtuku galvutemis. Kai jis pradejo juo mosuoti man pasidere neramu. Jo sautuvas issove ir degtukas ismigo i duru stakta prie manes. As apziurejau jo kurini. Konstrukcija atrode is tiesu logiska ir tikroviska. Veliau jis kazka pasakodamas pradejo gaminti sovinius is adateliu...

Astraline Projekcija Nov 27, 2005

2005-11-27T10:02:00.000-05:00

Astraline Projekcija: Gimtoji gatve
Atsibudau apie 7 val. Jau svito. Jauciausi nepailsejes todel nutariau paguleti ramiai ant nugaros ir papraktikuoti Full Body Circuit technika. Kai jau atsibodo apsiverciau ant pilvo ir labai atsipalaidavau. Beros po 5 minuciu pradejau jausti pirmuosius astralines projekcijos pozymius – energetinio kuno virpejima ir sirdies cakros paspartinta darba. Keista, nes budamas ant pilvo niekada to nepatirdavau. Taigi dar labiau atsipalaidavau ir is tikro prasidejo dar galingesni virpesiai ir jau zinojau, jog iseinu is kuno. Virpejimas vis intensyvejo kol visas mano kunas pradejo “virti”. Staiga pasigido kudikio verksmas akyse buvo tamsu ir tai siek tiek baugino. Bet zinojau, kad bet koks staigus judesys ar emocija galejo sutrukdyti tolimesniai projekcijai. Jauciau jog esu prasiziojes ir kvepuoju per burna, bet nieko nekeiciau o tik kantriai laukiau, nors verksmas vis labiau erzino. Staiga isvydau ugnies kamuoli, taciau jis buvo nespalvotas ir svytejo. Toliau viskas aptemo ir zinojau, jog astralinio kuno atsiskyrimas jau ivyko. Pamazu pradejo rysketi vaizdas – kazkokios lubos. Jauciau jog vaizdas trukcioja todel pasiunciau daugiau energijos i savo bambos centra ir viskas pasitaise. Beje jauciau savo fizini kuna tuo pat metu kaip ir astralini kuna. Buvo labai idomu buti 2ose vietose is karto – lovoje ir kazkur palubeje. Kai vaizdas pasidare visai ryskus pazvelgiau i savo astralines rankas – jos buvo permatomos, kaip vaiduoklio. Veliau pradejau dairytis kur as esu. Maciau jog tai kazkoks apleistas butas: nulupti tapetai, sudevetos ir plemuotos plyteles ant grindu. Visi kambariai atrode panasiai, taciau vietos atpazinti negalejau. Pagalvojau – gerai butu nuskristi i Lietuva, bet nepavyko transportuotis... Dar norejau surasti koki veidrodi, kad paziureti kaip atrodau, bet surades negalejau i ji pazvelgti.

Pazvelgiau pro langa, matesi balkonas, ejau kiaurai langa – pastebejau jog esu kazkurtai 9ame aukste. Zinojau, kad susizeisti neimanoma, bet baime vistiek buvo. Neriau zemyn ir pamazu nusklendziau zemyn. Man besileidziant vis dar girdejosi kudikio verksmas bei mano kriksto mamos balsas raminantis ji. Balsas sklido is aukstesnio auksto.

As jau buvau ant zemes apsidairiau ir atpazinau savo gimta nama Raseiniuose. Namas turejo tokia pat forma kaip ir tikras, taciau buvo super modernus ir dazytas labai kontrastiskomis spalvomis, buvo daugiau langu nei iprastai, o ant ju palangiu stovejo ivairios taures. Aplinkui nebuvo ne gyvos dvasios i be galo tylu. Sviete vakarejanti saule ir buvo giedras dangus.

Pagalvojau gerai butu uzeiti pas kaimynus, ibridau tiesiai per langa. ten maciau kudikio galvele... vaizdas pradejo nerysketi ir grizau atgal i kuna.

Kokia minute po grizimo paciame mano virsugalvyje girdejosi pati nuostabiausia indisku styginiu instrumentu simfonija. As susigraudinau nes tai buvo is tiesu nuostabu...

Sapnai Nov 26, 2005

2005-11-26T10:10:00.000-05:00

Sapnas: Parkas
Sauleta diena, parkas, berods labai panasu i Raseinius. Ejau esfantuotu keliuku, praejau ledu kioskeli. Rankoje nesiausi kazkoki balta maiseli, tiksliai nezinau ko jis buvo prikrautas, bet ruosiausi ji ismesti. Priekyje manes ejo motina su mazdaug 6 metu sunum, as pasinaudojau jais, kad galeciau pasislepti nuo priekyje sedincios ant suoliuko ir rukancios sviesiaplaukes merginos. Berods mes buvome is matymo su ja pazystami.

Toliau pamaciau siuksliu konteinerius ir ismeciau savo maiseli. Grizinejau tuo paciu keliuku atgal ir pamaciau kazkokia tai zemes kasykla. Praejimas buvo labai keblus, kad nenukrisciau i vandeni turejau eiti palei siena, isikibes i juoda ir balta kabelius, kurie seke palei ta siena. Devejau piirstines, kuriu pirstai buvo nukirpti. Rankos buvo purvinos, gerai, kad turejau pirstines.

Kai priejau aklaviete – teko apsisukti atgal. Buvo jausmas, kad katik baigiau koledza ir man butu geriau dirbti programeriu.

Sapnas: Riesutai
Ejome riesutmedziu aleja su Aldona. Buvo riesutu sezonas, is ties daug rudu prinokusiu riesutu. Sviete saule. As nuskyniau viena riesuta nuo lazdyno pabandyti. Prakandau ir is jo isriedejo 3 riesutai, didesni, nei, kad galetu tilpti i toki kevala. Berods paragavau ir nuejome toliau. Alejai baigesi, o tolumoje matesi Nemuno slenis ir Kacergine kitame krante. Ant zemes voliojosi nuvirte lazdynai ir be galo daug sukirmijusiu riesutu. Kai pajudinau juos – sukilo vabzdziu pulkas.

Sapnas: Tevukas
Veiksmas Raseiniuose prie tevuko namu. Apsiniauke – tevukas dirba lauke, kasa zeme ar kazkatai – berods ruosia pamatus kitai statybai. Jis atrodo gana keistai: prisimerkes, kakta issikisusi, sunkiai orientuojasi. Pamojavau jam – pamate ne is pirmo karto. Is karto paprase, kad atnesciau jam atsigerti. Nuejau i garaza, ten stovejo 2 mineralinio vandens buteliai. Vienas pustustis, kitas pusiau pilnas. Perpyliau pustuscio turini i puspilni, tai kas netilpo isgeriau pats. Uzsukau salia buvusiu suluzusiu kamstuku. Apverciau buteli paziureti ar nebega, vanduo varvejo, ir as nuejau paeiskoti kito kamstuko. Paziurejau aukstyn, nes ten isgirdau savo sese su kazkuo kalbant. Atsibudau – uzrasiau sapna ir vis dar buvo jausmas, kad turiu nunesti tevukui vandeni.

Sapnas: Karves
Stovejau prie lango. Prilaikiau uzuolaida rankoj. Uz lango visai netoli matesi karve ir jos vaikas. Abu gyvuliai turejo nuostabias protingas akis ir grazias juodas blakstienas. Mano sese stovejo salia ir perspejo, jog jie gali issigasti manes. Kai vel zvilgtelejau pro langa abi karves jau buvo nusileide zemiau i balsvai melsva, turbut pienuota, pilna pagaliu vandeni.

Sapnai Nov 25, 2005

2005-11-25T09:14:00.000-05:00

Sapnas: Pazintis
Maciau moters anketa www.pazintys.lt. Apie 30 metu amziaus.

Sapnas: Susitikimas su Vaikystes Draugais
Skridau miniatiuriniu kosminiu laivu, ant tiek mazu, jog jog jo dydis buvo kelis kart uz mane mazesnis ir as ne sedejau kabinoje bet laikiausi isikibes i jo sparna. Mes berods pasoveme kita erdvelaivi, kuris dabar jau buvo ant zemes ir pro juodo stiklo liukus matesi jo viduje besiblaskantys zmones, beje sveikut sveikuteliai. Apskridau ano erdvelaivio nemaza sparna ir nusilaidau i kazkoki vandens rezervara. Aplinkui buvo pilna marmuro statiniu, kurie savaime formavo vandens srove ir ant ju liejosi vanduo. Nors srove nebuvo didele ir vandens kiekis tebuvo 3 cm nuo pavirsiaus – stoveti ant sroves buvo sunku. Maciau aplinkui savo vaikystes draugus: 5-6 klases bendrausuoli Rolanda, kuriam buvo itin sunku kovoti su srove, nes jis buvo nestambus ir baikstus ir prigimties. Jis buvo iki puses nuogas ir nuolat kazka reke is baimes. Pamaciau, jog jis neislaikys ir sugriebiau is nugaros desine ranka per krutine, tikriausiai tokiu budu ji isgelbejau, nes veiksmas persikele i kita vieta.

Vis dar stovejome salia tu koriokliu, bet jau salia duru, kurios buvo padabintos ranku darbo vijomis. Salia ju stovejo mano pusbroliai Andrius ir Darius tokie, kokius as juos maciau gal 10 metu atgal, jauni ir linksmi. Darius buvo labai moteriskas, jo blakstienos buvo riestos, ilgos ir dazytos – sypsojosi. Kazka kalbejo angliskai, po to kai pagyriau, kad gerai kalba prakalbo rusiskai. Patapsnojau jam per galva, ir salia stovejes jo brolis Andrius nusijuoke savo iprastu zvengianciu juoku.

Sapnas: Susitikimas Kaime
Buvo be galo grazi diena. Matesi Nemuno slenis, kuri matydavau kasdiena isbeges i lauka savo kaime. Nemune prie dirbtinio pusiasalio matesi prirista raudona motorine valtis, zinojau jog joje yra mano tevas. Neiprasta buvo tai, jog visai salia manes stovejo nuostabus amfiteatras: mazmurines rausvos grindys ir laiptai, baltos kolonos, uzdengtas nuostabiu stogu. Mane suerzino keli besivoliojantys girtuokliai ant laiptu – jie spjaude ir ruke. Salia stovejo mano mama ir paprase, jog juos nuvyciau, nes jie tersia toki grozi. Nedelses ejau ju drausminti, pasakiau kazka tai labai neiprasto, kas juos is karto nuvijo, bet dabar neatsimenu ka. Po to pasilenkes paziurejau girtuokliu padaryta zala ir nuejau per amfiteatra. Viduje sutikau valytoja, aplinkui matesi jos darabas – svarios grindys.

Sapnas: Milziniskas Spenys
Sedejome su Kazimieru jo miegamajame. Buvo du televizoriai. Ketinau parodyti kazkoki filma per savo nesiojama kompiuteri per viena is tu televizoriu, sujungiau laidus. Per kazkuri kanala matesi neryskus vaizdas: aziete zurnaliste pasakojo apie savo plastine operacija. Vaizdas pradejo rysketi. Nusistebejau, kai jai netycia apsinuogino krutis is pasirode milziniskas spenys. Tada ji atkreipe i tai demesi ir pradejo su juo isdarineti ivairiausius triukus. Eme sutraukineti ji ir vel istempti. Galu gale jos spenys tapo toks ilgas, jog pradejo paneseti i peni.

Vizija Nov 05, 2005

2005-11-05T20:43:00.000-05:00

Vizija: Stygos
Buvau kalnuose panasiuose i Kazachstano. Aplinkui matesi zmones. Mano aki patrauke mergina palei uola. Ji buvo i ja atsiremusi, tamsiaplauke, apie 20 metu.

Netiketai mano rankose atsirado kazkoks muzikos instrumentas labai panasus i rusiska balalaika, taciau siek tiek didesnis. Jis turejo tris solo gitaros stygas virsuje ir tris bosines gitaros stygas apacioje. Bruksteljau kelis kartus prisedes ant akmens - garsas buvo isties ispudingas. Niekada nesu bent pakenciamai gorjes gitara, taciau ta syki grojau kaip virtuozas. Stebejausi kaip man tai pavyksta ir grozejausi nuostabiais garsais.

Vizija Jul 17, 2005

2005-07-17T20:51:00.000-04:00

Vizija: Vandeny
Pluduriavome vandenyje nemazoje valtyje su keletu nepazistamu merginu. Buvo tamsu, tik is toli sviete didmiescio sviesos. Berods tai buvo New York. Susirupines ziurejau i miesta tolumoje. Per zemutine pilvo sriti perejo nemalonus jausmas.

Vizija Jul 11, 2005

2005-07-11T15:07:00.000-04:00

Vizija: Raumenu Zmogus
Sedejome kambaryje, berods tai buvo virtuve, dviese. As ir padaras panasus i zmogu, taciau su ragais ir, berods, kanopomis. Jis neturejo odos - matesi jo raumenys, ir jis buvo nuogut nuogutelis.

Pastarasis man kazka labai ramiai aiskino. Zinojau, kad mano pasnekovas labai panesejo i Velnia, taciau jokiu neigiamu emociju jam nejauciau. Netgi nepastebejau jo neiprastos isvaizdos ir aplinka buvo pripildyta ramybe ir draugiskumu.

Staiga mano perspektyva persinese i lauka, to namo, kur sedejome isore. Sirdyje jauciau, jog tai arba Kauno arba Toronto miestas. Aplinkui matesi senoviniai pastatai, kazkas panasaus i vienuolyna.

Apacioje pamaciau kaip mano draugas vienuolis Petras bega per viena is vienuolyno koridoriu, o tuo paciu salia jo poksi kaip sprogimai tuo paciu priversdami ji is atsargumo soktelti i sona.

Toliau maciau to vienuolyno siena kaip ji atrodo dabar ir po kokiu 10-20 metu. Tai buvo labai idomu stebeti, panasiai kaip Holivudo filmuose rodo veiksma "Dabar" ir po kazkiek tai metu. Taigi, ta siena keitesi mano akyse, langai tapo uzmurinti, apacioje auges vijoklis apkerojo visa siena iki pat stogo. Pati siena tapo senesne, nugairinta veju ir paveikta kitu gamtos veiksniu.

Astraline Projekcija Jun 21, 2005

2005-06-21T19:07:00.000-04:00

Astraline Projekcija: Padalintas Kunas
Miegojau. Staiga pajutau energetinio kuno vibracija, o sirdies chakra dirbo taip, jog atrode sirdis tuoj neatlaikys kruvio. Mano fizinis kunas gulejo ant nugaros. Staiga buvau liudininkas keisciausio man kada nors ivykusio fenomeno: mano sensorika buvo visiskai padalinta i dvi dalis - kaire ir desine. Jauciau jog mano kaire puse yra vienoje aplinkoje, o desine visiskai kitoje. Atrode, lyg kas butu perkirtes mano kuna isilgai pusiau, ir as vis dar buciau gyvas ir viska jausciau. Taigi viena mano kuno puse buvo tamsiame kambaryje su kazkokiais laiptais, o kita buvo apsviestoje patalpoje su baldais. Idomiausia tai, kad tuo paciu galejau jausti savo fizini kuna gulinti lovoje. Buvau 3se vietose is karto.

Astraline Projekcija May 23, 2005

2005-05-23T19:31:00.000-04:00

Astraline Projekcija: Negaliu pajudeti
Prisimenu kuno virpesius ir tai kad mano sirdies cakra dirbo mazdaug 300 duziu per minute. Pasiruosiau atsiskyrimui nuo kuno, taciau turbut per daug apsidiziaugiau, nes susivokiau esas atsibudes. Didziam mano nustebimui negalejau pajudinti savo ranku. Jauciau jog mano astralines rankos svytruoja i salis, dar maciau ju vaiduokliskus seselius, berods dar girdejau savo kuno trinti i patalyne, bet tuo paciu zinojau, jog tas garsas yra astralinis - isivaizduojamas.

Negana to jog negalejau patekti i savo kuna girdejau kazkokius pasaipius vaikiskus balsus visai salia. Pabandziau juos pamatyti, bet akys neklause - maciau tai ka mato mano fizines akys: lubas ir lopineli kaldros. Akiu pajudinti taip pat negalejau.

Kai balsai man ikyrejo pabandziau juos nuvyti staigiu ranku mostu, bet viskas ka isgirdau buvo vaikisku balsu "Uuuuuuuu" ir po to sekes juokas. Supratau, kad reikia atsipalaiduoti.

Atsipalaidavau, pagalvojau apie pedas, ir sugrizau i kuna. Po akimirkos buvau laimingas galedamas pajudinti savo kuna.

Astraline Projekcija Feb 16, 2005

2005-02-16T20:14:00.000-05:00

Astraline Projekcija: Kolonu Aleja
Isejau is kuno lengvai. Skambejo galingas varpo gausmas. Aplinka atrode be galo rami, kaip iprasta astralinems erdvems. Pries mane atsivere kolonu aleja. Sio darinio pabaigos izvelgti negalejau - ji atrode bagaline. Jausmas buvo toks lyg visa tai butu po vandeniu. Blanki sviesa sklido pro kolonu tarpus, buvo be galo grazu ir jauku. Jauciau kaip astralinis vejas mane nesa per sia nuostabia aleja.

Vizija Nov 29, 2004

2004-11-29T12:59:00.000-05:00

Vizija: Trys Barzdociai
Vaziavome lengvaja masina - mano draugas Creg vairavo, as sedejau salia. Berods riedejome dangoraizio stogu. Buvo be galo grazi diena, skaistus dangus, saule sviete tiesiai i akis.

As pasukau galva i kaire pazvelgiau pro langeli: uz kokiu 10 metru stovejo triju zmoniu biustu statulos. Jos visos buvo spalvotos ir su barzdomis. Kazkas labai panasaus i Marksa, Engelsa ir Lenina. Salia ju pasiremes sedejo mano buves klasiokas Ramunas. Atsisukau pirmyn ir pastebejau, jog mums gresia nuvaziavimas nuo stogo. Akimirksniu sugriebiau issiblaskiusi Creg ir masina buvo sustabdyta.

Astraline Projekcija Nov 20, 2004

2004-11-20T22:01:00.000-05:00

Astraline Projekcija: Ziema
Atitrukti nuo kuno pavyko ne is karto. Jauciau sirdies cakros darba intensyvejant ir vel silpnejant, buvo jausmas lyg krutineje veiktu gerokai isbalansuotas variklis.

Pagaliau gerai atispalaidavus su dideliais triuksmais atsiduriau kazkurtai negyvenamoje vietoveje. Dangus buvo giedras ir iki horizonto matesi baltut baltutis sniegas. Paziurejau zemyn - suvokiau jog esu besvoris ir tokiu budu nepalieku jokiu pedu ant sniego. Tylu. Danguje pamaciau didejanti taska jis skrido is kaires i desine. Suvokes jog taip pat galiu skraidyti pabandziau pasivyti. Sutelkes paskutines valios jegas verziausi aukstyn. Stabtelejau, geriau isiziurejau i artejanti objekta. Tai buvo juodaplauke apie 20 metu tamsaus gymio mergina ant arklio. Jie skrido tokiu greiciu, jog negalejau pasivyti.

Vel apsidairiau aplinkui ir isvydau pastata priesakyje. Akimirksniu atsiradau prie jo duru. Viduje buvo keletas angliskai besikalbanciu zmoniu, jie manes nemate. Atrodytu lyg buciau vaiduoklis. Apsidairiau aplinkui pamaciau zavia sekretore, ir, aisku, pasimylejau su ja. Deja nesugebejau sukontroliuoti savo emociju ir sekancia akimirka vel buvau savo fiziniame kune ant lovos.

Astraline Projekcija Aug 10, 2004

2004-08-10T22:14:00.000-04:00

Astraline Projekcija: Kudikis
Isejimas is kuno buvo baugus, kadangi aplinkui buvo apsoliuciai tamsu ir kazkokie keisti balsai smirinejo aplinkui. Vaizdas pradejo rysketi ir susivokiau kabas savo kambaryje prie lubu. Mano kambarys buvo be jokios angos, taciau vienas zemesnis kambario kampas buvo apsviestas nors jokios lempos ar kitokio sviesos saltinio nesimate.

Staiga pamaciau kaip kambario grindimis ropoja maza, gal keliu menesiu mergaite. Ji neatrode labai sveika. Staiga mano visa samone perejo i ta mergaite ir pajutau save ropojanti jos kune. Buvo labai idomus jausmas, jausti save tokiame mazame kune, rankos ir kojos nelabai klause. Po keliu akimirku vel sugrizau i savo buvusia stebejimo vieta bei pabudau.

Vizija Jan 20, 2003

2003-01-20T13:12:00.000-05:00

Vizija: Isplaukiu
Dalyvavau kazkokoiame pasilinksminime. Buvo nemazai jaunimo taip pat mano mama ir dar keletas vyresniu zmoniu. Aplinkui liejosi gerimai ir selo garsi muzika. Pajutau, kad man visa tai atsibosta ir pasiemes kuprine, kurioje jau buvo sudeti rubai, leidausi pirmyn. Mamai toks mano poelgis nesukele teigiamu emociju ir ji siek tiek pyktelejo. Bet as ejau toliau.

Isejes is baro, ar kaip ta linksma vieta bepavadintume, pakilau geleziniais laipteliais i virsu ir susivokiau, jag as esu laive. Buvo maloni naktis. Mes plaukeme per vandenyna. Uzlipau iki ten kur buvo vairas. Tai buvo nuostabus laivas, stiprus, svarus, patikimas laivas. Is tiesu buvo vienas malonumas su tokiu plaukti ir man perejo siurpuliukai is pasitenkinimo.

Vizija Oct 11, 2002

2002-10-11T12:14:00.000-04:00

Vizija: Zmogus Toronte
Maciau didmiesti, berods tai buvo Torontas. Visos gatve buvo tuscios. O dangoraiziai buvo palinke nuo gatves puses. As stebjau vaizda pakiles nuo gatves. Ant placios gatves pasimate sunkiai einantis juodai apsirenges zmogus.

Po keliu akimirku mes kalbejomes, as ir tas zmogus, atsisede i pavesi ant kazkokio saligatvio. Jo veidas buvo paisinas, bet protingas. Matesi, jog jo sveikata slubuoja. Bekalbant jo veidas eme panaseti i Bruce Lee. Jis deste man savo filosofija, deja nieko negaliu prisiminti.

Vizija Sep 17, 2002

2002-09-17T11:21:00.000-04:00

Vizija: Ateitis
Maciau viska nuo kalno. Man atsisveikindami mojavo mano seimininkai Vokietijoje, apsigrezes lipau mediniais laiptais. Buvo slidu ir daug pernyksciu medziu lapu. Lipau ilgai ir kantriai.

Kalno virsuje maciau save stovinti su sviesiaplauke mergina, aukstesne uz save, taciau jos veido nesimate. Ji stovejo is nugaros apkabinusi mane ir atsiremusi i kolona. Jauciau meile. Sviete spiginanciai skaisti saule.

Vizija Jul 18, 2002

2002-07-18T10:55:00.000-04:00

Vizija: Zmones Baltais Rubais
Stovau ant kalno. Tolumoje matesi snieguotos virsukalnes. Pries mane buriavosi jaunimas baltut baltuteliais rubais. Visi buvome su dviraciais.

Vienas is burio, mazdaug 20 metu vaikinas, sviesiai raudonais plaukais, pamojo man po to priejo. Kazka man pasake. As paziurejau i save. Vilkejau taip pat baltus rubus, taciau jie buvo siek tiek sutepti. Man buvo nepatogu pries savo naujus draugus, kadangi as buvau nesvarus. Bet niekas i tai nekreipe demesio.

Veliau nuo gretimo kalno nusileido pakelejas ir mes visi sulipome i jo kabina. Visi susedome ant suoliuku palei langus. Tvyrojo ramybe ir dziaugsmas, jauciau visu ju draugiskuma. Mes kelemes tolyn ir aukstyn. Pro langus matesi nuostabus kalnu grozis.

Astraline Projekcija May 19, 2002

2002-05-19T20:20:00.000-04:00

Astraline Projekcija: Pirmasis Samoningas Isejimas is Kuno
Tai buvo mano pimasis isejimas is kuno. Tai ivyko spontaniskai nakti, kai miegojau. Staiga pajutau keistus virpesius savo sirdies srityje. Tiesiog stebejau kas bus toliau. Staiga prasidejo nezmoniskas triuksmas. Garsas buvo toks lyg milzinisku greiciu lekiantis signalizuojantis lokomotyvas pralektu vos kelis centimetrus nuo manes. Buvo baugu, nes akys nieko nemate ir nesuvokiau kas vyksta.

Po to pasipyle ivairiausi ornamentai ir as per juos skridau vos ne sviesos greiciu. Maniau, jog sito neistversiu, taciau buvo smalsu tad kentejau ir laikiau.

Taip pat staiga kaip viskas prasidejo, taip pat ir baigesi. Po keliu akimirku suvokiau, jog pamazu skrendu per savo kambari - esu nesamas kazkokios sroves link lango. Kambarys atrode kitaip nei iprasta, baldai buvo kitokie arba ju nebuvo is viso. Prie lango metesi medzio lapai.

Isskridau pro langa, maciau savo seimininkus kalbancius prie stalo lauke, gurksnojancius arbata. Suvokiau jog patyriau isejoma is kuno tad pradejau smagintis. Lekiau atgal i nama ir verziausi tiesiai per stiklines duris, zinojau, kad galiu eiti kiaurai daiktus.

Praejes pro duris isgirdau duztanti stikla, po to pakilau i savo kambari tiesiai per lubas. Maciau save sokanti pusnuogi kazkoki papuasu soki pries veidrodi. Atrodziau mazesnis ir viena akimi aklas. Po akimirkos is tikro pradejau matyti tik viena akimi.

Atsibudau, buvo rytas, turejau sunkumu sugriztant i savo kuna, kadangi jauciau, jog negaliu jo kontroliuoti. Kuri laika pasiblaskes salia savo fizinio kuno sugebejau i ji "ilysti".

Vizija Mar 09, 2002

2002-03-09T15:27:00.000-05:00

Vizija: Milziniskas Voras
Aplinkui tvyrojo nezmoniska itampa, metesi didziuliai akmenys. Staiga is uz kalno isniro milziniskas, mazdaug 10 metru aukscio voras ir eme i mane saudyti savo tinklais. As turejau nuo jo pasislepti, nes kaitaip buciau suvirskintas gyvas.

Ilgai nelaukes ibegau i viena salia esanciu akmeniniu olu. Maciau savo priesininka dar inirtingiau laidanti savo ciuptuvus ir tinklus. Daresi labai nejauku.

Vizija Jan 10, 2001

2001-01-10T12:48:00.000-05:00

Vizija: Nusivairavimas
Vaziavome 3 krovininiame mikroautonuse: as bei mano bendradarbiai Vokietijoje - Tom ir Gabi. Vaziavome ir kalbejomes. Berods tai buvo kazkur Amerikoje. Vairavo Gabi, Tom sedejo salia, o as gale. Mes nuvaziavome nuo kelio ir toliau lekeme smeleta pakrante kol patekome i vandeni. Masina buvo iki puses paskendusi - toliau vaziuoti negalejome. Visi islipome as pirmas begau i kranta ir labai dziugavau, mosavau iskeltomis rankomis. Uz manes per vandeni ejo abejingas Tom, o pats paskutinis brido Gabi. Jis atrode itin susikrimtes.